well
i am sitting here feeling like i want to write a livejournal post and give anyone who cares (probably only myself) a concrete picture of who i am right now. i feel like a completely different person than the one who wrote all these other things i see on this page. of course, i'm not, but then again... basically i feel like i no longer have the ability, or at the very least the desire, to string together words to express some sort of 'deep' philosophical issue i've been contemplating. i make myself sound, with all those words, as if i have some important knowledge to pass on. i've never been much besides a confused kid. most of the posts i've made (in the last 2 or so years at least)have boiled down to little more than ego-masturbation. HEY LOOK WHAT I CAN DO! i don't regret it though. i felt the need for it at the time. i probably was really hoping that someone would get something out of it, but for the most part i just wanted to show off like a little boy. whatever, i was a little boy. all that aside, the point i'm getting at is that i'd like to try and use any skill i may or may not have as a writer to write entertaining pieces of fiction. i don't know if i'll pull that off (maybe if i lay off the herb). if not i probably won't be posting much in here anymore. if so i guess you'll see.