i awoke
and my life swept over me in a wave of despair. i hopped up and started singing to myself to lift my spirits. the sun was lower in the sky and i started back towards the school. hurrying for no apparent reason. all the peace of my earlier musings shattered and i cursed my mind for turning so easily from bliss to despair and back again. the despair was all the more crushing because it made the bliss seem so illusory. i felt very restless now so i made my way to the library to occupy my brain with the glowing light of a computer screen...and here i am.