change after illness.
i was sick, but i got over it.
when i did, something changed inside my brain.
i realize all i want to do is have fun somehow.
i look at the things i try to fulfill that and i see how it is an empty kind of fun.
especially when it's done alone.
the fun never lasts long.
so i stopped trying to have fun.
i don't want to be at this point of my life forever.
i don't want to live at my parents until i'm 30 still procrastinating on getting my diploma.
so i decided to do nothing but get my schooling done.
and do all the things that need to be done.
self teaching, learning, exercise, eat right, do the things that will make my body healthy and feeling great.
stay away from the electric idle box more often.
i realize such devices turn off the productive engine in the brain and it is very hard to think and be creative.
i haven't been able to come up with any drawings or good original songs or anything that has to do with art.
now i'm working to jumpstart my mind once again. the media stole my mind and i want to take my mind back.
because it's mine, not the worlds.
and i want to think for myself and come up with original ideas on all the things i'm good at!
"fitter,
happier,
more productive,
a pig,
in a cage,
on antibiotics..."
when i did, something changed inside my brain.
i realize all i want to do is have fun somehow.
i look at the things i try to fulfill that and i see how it is an empty kind of fun.
especially when it's done alone.
the fun never lasts long.
so i stopped trying to have fun.
i don't want to be at this point of my life forever.
i don't want to live at my parents until i'm 30 still procrastinating on getting my diploma.
so i decided to do nothing but get my schooling done.
and do all the things that need to be done.
self teaching, learning, exercise, eat right, do the things that will make my body healthy and feeling great.
stay away from the electric idle box more often.
i realize such devices turn off the productive engine in the brain and it is very hard to think and be creative.
i haven't been able to come up with any drawings or good original songs or anything that has to do with art.
now i'm working to jumpstart my mind once again. the media stole my mind and i want to take my mind back.
because it's mine, not the worlds.
and i want to think for myself and come up with original ideas on all the things i'm good at!
"fitter,
happier,
more productive,
a pig,
in a cage,
on antibiotics..."