buh hambag

[applianceface]

the holidays didn't feel like the holidays this year...

i must be getting old.

or there is just something missing in my life that makes me feel empty all over the place.

nothing makes me happy. i feel empty.

i don't know why.

things were rushed. i was afraid.

i wanted her as a good friend and i wanted to be a good friend to her and help her with whatever.

now she doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore.

i hate the methods of typical "relationships".

nothing is in the right place these days.

time goes too fast.

everyone i know never wants to do anything.

the gloomy weather doesn't help.

neither does the foodless foods of holiday feasts.

i wish i can ride my bike places.

i'm tired of watching movies and playing games constantly everyday.

i could be doing something productive but i don't want to.

why don't i want to?

i hate winters.