cue the self pity
i broke up with my boyfriend (damn...i still feel uncomfortable with that word)...and to say the least some of his friends are giving me dirty looks. pathetic. sad. makes me feel disgustingly antisocial and in need of some serious alone time.
i guess i'm down and when i'm all sad and down...and stuff like that makes me lose whatever appetite i have. aw well. it happens.
i feel sorry for myself! i did at one point feel sorry for J (what i'll call the boy that used to be my boyfriend) but that stopped when his friends gave me the bastard looks. hah.
95 here i come "/ i want to be 95 lbs by the end of january. let's see if i get it. hope so. or maybe i'll just forget the goal weights and start with the whole 'how skinny can i get?' like i did this summer. i'm at this stupid boarding school so no one'll notice. i'll just wear bigger clothes around the family when i see them in march for spring vacation.
sigh.
it's like i'm a wannabee depressed person. hahahaha!
->bye<-
i guess i'm down and when i'm all sad and down...and stuff like that makes me lose whatever appetite i have. aw well. it happens.
i feel sorry for myself! i did at one point feel sorry for J (what i'll call the boy that used to be my boyfriend) but that stopped when his friends gave me the bastard looks. hah.
95 here i come "/ i want to be 95 lbs by the end of january. let's see if i get it. hope so. or maybe i'll just forget the goal weights and start with the whole 'how skinny can i get?' like i did this summer. i'm at this stupid boarding school so no one'll notice. i'll just wear bigger clothes around the family when i see them in march for spring vacation.
sigh.
it's like i'm a wannabee depressed person. hahahaha!
->bye<-