okay...
I'm going to the beach with my sister and her family unfortunately tomorrow and I really, really don't want to go, but it's impossible to say no. It'd be so rude and I don't want to be rude to them...
I still weigh so much, but at the same time I don't really know what I weigh, I just know that it's around 115-120 and it bugs me because I don't want the world seeing me looking like that, it's nasty. I'm only 5'5 and I can't believe I weigh that much. To top things off, I don't even own a freaking bathing suit, so I'm screwed there, all my clothes are dirty and overall I'm pissed off.
Doesn't help that I feel fat as hell right now and stuff. Oh well, I guess I just have to deal with it and be patient, I know I'll get through this little bump in the road and my weight will get smaller.
I'm ordering myself not to eat while I'm out with my sister tomorrow, all I'm gonna have is coffee with equal and that's it, i'll start the morning with egg substitute (which has like nothing) and everything's gonna be okay. It has to be okay, I'm going to make sure it's okay, dammit!
gah, today started out as a good today...and then I had to treat myself to a handful of walnuts and two sugar free popsicles (each have 15 calories). It really did start out as a good day...I'm just mad I ruined it, but it's not as bad as it could be I guess.
oh well, hope everyone's doing well!
byee~~
I still weigh so much, but at the same time I don't really know what I weigh, I just know that it's around 115-120 and it bugs me because I don't want the world seeing me looking like that, it's nasty. I'm only 5'5 and I can't believe I weigh that much. To top things off, I don't even own a freaking bathing suit, so I'm screwed there, all my clothes are dirty and overall I'm pissed off.
Doesn't help that I feel fat as hell right now and stuff. Oh well, I guess I just have to deal with it and be patient, I know I'll get through this little bump in the road and my weight will get smaller.
I'm ordering myself not to eat while I'm out with my sister tomorrow, all I'm gonna have is coffee with equal and that's it, i'll start the morning with egg substitute (which has like nothing) and everything's gonna be okay. It has to be okay, I'm going to make sure it's okay, dammit!
gah, today started out as a good today...and then I had to treat myself to a handful of walnuts and two sugar free popsicles (each have 15 calories). It really did start out as a good day...I'm just mad I ruined it, but it's not as bad as it could be I guess.
oh well, hope everyone's doing well!
byee~~