weekend update
I had a dream last night that a person I don't like died in a freak accident. I won't read too much into it because in the same dream I also tried to save the life of a miniature mermaid. It was akin to trying to pick up a goldfish... In case you were wondering.
I also recently found out that in addition to graduating, I'm graduating with honors! Super exciting! I believe this makes up for, erm, my entire senior year of high school (talk about a nose dive) and speaks volumes for who I am now and how I handle situations. In fact, barring a few grown-ups with careers, I think I'm the most capable person I know. If only I could apply that same self confidence to folding laundry...
One last thing; I keep getting criticized for not trying to pursue art as a career. If I had known as a child that people would be angry with me when I decided not to become a professional artist I'd probably be an entirely different person! I thought it would be the other way around. I thought I was supposed to be "more practical." I mean, it's too late for me to change anything now. (Let's add that I also don't want to go to art school!) Sometimes I feel as if I live in an entirely different world in which there are special rules for me. I have never wanted to be different. I've never wanted to stand out. I always wanted to be just like everyone else. But, just like when I was 13 and wanted an Old Navy vest, it doesn't matter what I do I will never be just like everyone else. I'm tired of being "kooky and eccentric." I'd really like to be respected and thought highly of. Let's face it: never the two shall meet.
I'll keep you posted.
I also recently found out that in addition to graduating, I'm graduating with honors! Super exciting! I believe this makes up for, erm, my entire senior year of high school (talk about a nose dive) and speaks volumes for who I am now and how I handle situations. In fact, barring a few grown-ups with careers, I think I'm the most capable person I know. If only I could apply that same self confidence to folding laundry...
One last thing; I keep getting criticized for not trying to pursue art as a career. If I had known as a child that people would be angry with me when I decided not to become a professional artist I'd probably be an entirely different person! I thought it would be the other way around. I thought I was supposed to be "more practical." I mean, it's too late for me to change anything now. (Let's add that I also don't want to go to art school!) Sometimes I feel as if I live in an entirely different world in which there are special rules for me. I have never wanted to be different. I've never wanted to stand out. I always wanted to be just like everyone else. But, just like when I was 13 and wanted an Old Navy vest, it doesn't matter what I do I will never be just like everyone else. I'm tired of being "kooky and eccentric." I'd really like to be respected and thought highly of. Let's face it: never the two shall meet.
I'll keep you posted.