Looks like morning in your eyes
I have spent half of a beautiful Saturday sitting in front of a computer screen doing NOTHING of importance...God, I need to stop wasting my life away in front of the computer. I suffer all week and look forward to the weekend, and this is how I spend my time?? Well, what else could I be doing? I'm fucking grounded (for the first time) for being "irresponsible". Whatever, I guess I am sometimes. My parents were just pissed because I didn't call them until 11:30 and they assumed I was coming home at 10 because when they asked me when the show was over, I told them I was guessing ten or so. Fuck that. I just want to be out right now. If I weren't grounded I would probably be at home right now anyway, but just knowing that I can't go out and have fun makes me want to all that much more. Lately it just feels like I've been floating along, not knowing exactly where I'm going. And just kind of dealing with things as they come, and only worrying about the moment. It's weird and hard to explain. It's not a bad thing, I don't think. But somehow it's different. Maybe I just want school to end or something like that. Anyway, yesterday was stupid. I do not know why, but for some reason, yesterday was stupid in just about every single way that it could have been. School was very stupid. And the show was too. It was sort of fun, you know. I got to hang out with my friends and all that groovy stuff, but I wasn't really feelin any of the bands, except for Organized Ignorance because I think they're cool. But other than that, it was just, okay. To put it simply, I was bored. Apparently I wasn't the only one, which is good so I don't feel like I'm some crazy ass bitch who hates everything and can't have fun. I'm bored as fuck. I should clean up my room so I can find my cell phone. Maybe if I find it and have it charged and everything my parents will see that they can get a hold of me at any time and then MAYBE they will let me go out!! I don't know where I'd go, but still I'd go out. I kind of wanted to go to Donnie Darko at the midnight movie but I don't want to push it, because right now they're all high strung about me being out late and shit. So I dunno. Later.
★ Nina
★ Nina