When life gets to much

[applesaregood]

Home is not what i thought it would be....
Friends are not who they used to be...
Everyone is looking out for number one....
Everyone is so ready to tell what everyone else thinks....
Everyone is so careful to not let on that they think the same....
No one can remember what they said the day after....
When someone brings it up, they get in trouble...
No one is the same....
Life had to go down....we got to high....we always get to high....and then the crash seems to be more devestating every time....
I want what i used to have...
I want people to stop trying to make people dislike me and start realising that im not the girl that everyone is making me out to be....
I want the person i want right now to stop being shy and realise i want what he wants to.....
I want the one i used to want to see what he did to me