Can you be a place holder? I can't ...
Until just recently, I didn't realize how bad it's gotten. I'm kind of annoyed with myself. I didn't want it to go this far. I knew it would only end in frustration. Yet here I am.
So now, I have to figure out what to do. Do I throw my hat into the ring, even though I don't think I can win? Or do I walk away and be haunted with what if's. And if I can win, the benefits are immense. But so are the drawbacks. I'm not sure I can handle the drawbacks. I think when the dust settled, I'd be worse for wear. And I'm already worn thin enough.
How do you fight for something if you're not even sure you really want it. How do you let something go if you feel you'll regret it.
Nobody knows what the hell I'm talking about and it's probably better that way ....
So now, I have to figure out what to do. Do I throw my hat into the ring, even though I don't think I can win? Or do I walk away and be haunted with what if's. And if I can win, the benefits are immense. But so are the drawbacks. I'm not sure I can handle the drawbacks. I think when the dust settled, I'd be worse for wear. And I'm already worn thin enough.
How do you fight for something if you're not even sure you really want it. How do you let something go if you feel you'll regret it.
Nobody knows what the hell I'm talking about and it's probably better that way ....