'do you ever just want to hug a tree?' 'No I was thinking more along the lines of a boy'
Yeah, that last entry was a joke. I got some of you though! I just wanted to fit in with all of my live journal friends who were like 'YEAH 4/20!!!!' So that was my lame attempt.
So heres what my week breaks down to so far with absolutely no segways into each other:
So today I rode my bike to the pond over by Smith and sat there on a rock by the pond and wrote my sermon. 4 hours, that’s how long it took and its still not done. Probably because I kinda just sat there and thought for a long time. I was sitting there and this girl comes up to me and I am sitting there with my ipod in my ears and my moms cell phone in my hand and the little girl says to me 'why are you using all of that stuff?' Baffled, I responded with the lame answer of 'it helps me concentrate.' After a bit of thinking I decided that I would throw my pod in the lake along with the cell phone. But I couldn’t bring my self to do it. That made me discussed with my self.
I have been going out to dinner with my dad for the past few nights because we don’t feel like cooking and everyone is gone so why not? Good experience right? That’s what I thought like hey quality time with dad, no problem. But the first thing he says to me when we sit down outside of Cha Cha Cha on Monday is 'I wouldn’t be surprised if your mother and I got a divorce, we can’t seem to agree on anything.' SNAP WHAT?!?! Yeah so that kinda freaked me out because I have grown up being like 'I want my marriage to be just like my parents' and here I am and he is telling me all the problems he has with her.
Lately I have just wanted to run away. I am so sick of the plastic smiles and rosey colors that everyone tries to paint Northampton in. I keep telling my dad that I am sick of the high school and I don’t like it there at all but he kinda just brushes me off and is like 'well your getting good grades there so it cant be that bad.' but it is and he doesn’t realize it and I just hate it soooo much and I want to go to a different school but my mom is just like 'Chelsea I got by just fine and I went to the high school all four years.' and its like yeah sure that might have worked for you, but I'm not you. Maybe I'll go to a boarding school in Alaska or something. I hate it here and I hate that my parents feel the need to tell me everything and expect me to do the same. And I hate that my dad cant keep one little secret and I hate that I cant tell one of my parents without knowing that the other will find out soon. And I hate my life right now and I, much like Arin, don’t see the point in me living at the moment. But when I woke up this morning I was in the best mood. I hate it. I just want to run away.
On top of all that, I haven’t accomplished any of my vacation goals. I am going to have to go with Sophie on this one, damn life sucks.
I am thinking of making this a friends only lj any objections?
Whatever, post if you want.
Chelsea
So heres what my week breaks down to so far with absolutely no segways into each other:
So today I rode my bike to the pond over by Smith and sat there on a rock by the pond and wrote my sermon. 4 hours, that’s how long it took and its still not done. Probably because I kinda just sat there and thought for a long time. I was sitting there and this girl comes up to me and I am sitting there with my ipod in my ears and my moms cell phone in my hand and the little girl says to me 'why are you using all of that stuff?' Baffled, I responded with the lame answer of 'it helps me concentrate.' After a bit of thinking I decided that I would throw my pod in the lake along with the cell phone. But I couldn’t bring my self to do it. That made me discussed with my self.
I have been going out to dinner with my dad for the past few nights because we don’t feel like cooking and everyone is gone so why not? Good experience right? That’s what I thought like hey quality time with dad, no problem. But the first thing he says to me when we sit down outside of Cha Cha Cha on Monday is 'I wouldn’t be surprised if your mother and I got a divorce, we can’t seem to agree on anything.' SNAP WHAT?!?! Yeah so that kinda freaked me out because I have grown up being like 'I want my marriage to be just like my parents' and here I am and he is telling me all the problems he has with her.
Lately I have just wanted to run away. I am so sick of the plastic smiles and rosey colors that everyone tries to paint Northampton in. I keep telling my dad that I am sick of the high school and I don’t like it there at all but he kinda just brushes me off and is like 'well your getting good grades there so it cant be that bad.' but it is and he doesn’t realize it and I just hate it soooo much and I want to go to a different school but my mom is just like 'Chelsea I got by just fine and I went to the high school all four years.' and its like yeah sure that might have worked for you, but I'm not you. Maybe I'll go to a boarding school in Alaska or something. I hate it here and I hate that my parents feel the need to tell me everything and expect me to do the same. And I hate that my dad cant keep one little secret and I hate that I cant tell one of my parents without knowing that the other will find out soon. And I hate my life right now and I, much like Arin, don’t see the point in me living at the moment. But when I woke up this morning I was in the best mood. I hate it. I just want to run away.
On top of all that, I haven’t accomplished any of my vacation goals. I am going to have to go with Sophie on this one, damn life sucks.
I am thinking of making this a friends only lj any objections?
Whatever, post if you want.
Chelsea