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Lately a lot of things have been running through my head. I have this absolutely amazing guy in my life. We just seemed to stumble across each other. One day I was auditioning for a band, and the following week I was dating the guitarist. It’s crazy how things happen sometimes. I've been going out with my Ryan for roughly a month and a half. It's funny, we both agree that it seems like it has been much longer. He’s beautiful, both inside and out. Ryan really makes me happy. Every time I see him I cannot help but smile. I just don't know how it to put into words. It's the way he makes me feel. It's the way he holds my hand and the way he looks at me. When I’m with him, I sense the attributes I will always cherish: his intelligence, humor, passion, charm, and the carefree way he seems to view the world. He’s such a little kid sometimes, but I love that about him. He also knows that there are times when he needs to be responsible and serious. Oh, and he puts up with me! Lord knows I love to play around and joke, I'm just glad he doesn't take things in the wrong way. It’s weird to say this but, all of my life, I’ve prayed for someone like him and I was just lucky enough to run across a Chasing Katie Flyer. I’m truly happy with him, but absolutely scared to death. I don’t want to loose him. Is that weird? I guess this is what it comes to. Both my Mom and Lyndsey have mentioned it. I have denied it, for fear of it being too soon. I don’t want give my heart away too soon and be hurt and left within month. I couldn’t take that. That is also one of the reasons why I haven’t done anything with him yet. Some experiences are just too personal; I cannot give myself to him without knowing that he cares for me just as much as I do for him. I’m not saying that he doesn’t, but I’m not saying that he does. I have no idea what goes through his head. I can only hope that he is genuine. There are always risks in life and I’m willing to take as many needed for him. Now I promised that I’d write about him in my journal…I never did say which one…..he may read this he may not. Hopefully, he’ll like this…..So, the truth is out……. I love Ryan Enloe.