It was all a waste of time
Things are so messed up when it comes to university. Over the past four years of working my ass off to get those scholarships that never really existed somebody forgot to tell me that I'm trailer trash. Not just any kind but the dirt broke kind. I could never afford this but I spent the last year avoiding reality, and the oh so helpful budget, hoping that some how everything would work out. I really honestly beleived that god would show me a way but instead I ignored reality. Well not completely true. I worked full time over the last three years to save up for school and guess what according to the gov this must mean that I can afford it. I think NOT. So I've got a little money, it's not enough and I'm honestly out of options. My heart is broken, truely broken. I will not be spending next year in Canada's best university going to the best business program, instead I will be working at Peller estates probably drinking away my problems. I just wished some one would have said hey idiot you're poor before I had my heart ripped out of my chest, put in a blender with all my hopes and dreams and served cold. I just wish I could stop crying and talk myself into Dr. Mitchell's offer at Brock. I wish I could let go of Queen's.