i want to just forget and trust again.
i cant really help what i feel. i love daniel so much. i heard some other stuff this morning that him and danielle got really far. but im not listening to what other people have to say because daniel is right. this is our relationship no one elses. and i bealive him when he says that he didnt kiss her but the part that hurts the most is knowing he wanted to. i cant help but think he liked the whole night he was with her. i gave him so much trust and i really thought he wouldnt fuck me over as bad as he did. he bought coke but i let that one go because he was drunk. but shit i just hope that that dumb ass brode danielle is happy because shes the one who started to flirt with him. so shes the one who let it lead to this. babe, ugh yuo really need to prove to me that you do love me and i know you say you do. but you didnt love me that night. you forgot about me. i was nothing. now the result is i feel like nothing. you need to help me feel loved and alive again. because you were the only person that made me feel that way before. i want, i need to feel that again. please, im begging you. just know that i love you and i want to fix this. i want to just forget about this. but im still hurt so its gonna take some time. i know you'll understand. thats why i love you. i cant wait till our 5 month and christmas. babe i love you. leave an entry on this if you read it.
oh how a splinter in my heart hurts so bad. its like blood hitting oxygen, it sufacates.