it is time
I heed you advice. I am crippled with guilt and left with a feeling of uneasiness. This negativity is eating my soul - burning from the inside out like a forest fire that had been left unattended. The saddest part is knowing that I am, in fact, the cause of my own emotional destruction. For 18 years I have slowly been pulling the trigger on my spiritual growth. Slitting the wrists of my once sunny outlook on life. When I was once wide-eyed and open-minded, anticipating all that the world had to offer me. Embittered have I become in such a short time. And for what? A laugh? To join in on the fun? Cause' else everyone is doing it? Ya ya the glass is half empty...but then what? Pessimism is the easy road. Optimism and self-actualization is the high one.
I am holding myself back and that has to stop. I must learn that I am capable and derserving of love. Because then, and only then, can I truly allow myself to.
I am holding myself back and that has to stop. I must learn that I am capable and derserving of love. Because then, and only then, can I truly allow myself to.