dudenice
i haven't fukkin updated for awhile...i've been wicked busy
i feel weird. scary thoughts have hit me in the past few nights. it pretty much all began on a phone call with dave and mike talking about how we are going to get a label. we kinda decided if we did, that we would not go to college. but i have a chance to get into a good school, and i might never again get this chance. then i thought about after college maybe...but no. i would have a job and everything. i realized that in just a few years, i would never see the friends i have now, again. it scared the hell out of me...i wrote some songs about it, but i just threw them out...i don't know why i only end up thinking of shit like this. i can never think of the good things. oh well...
i'm excited about the show we get to do, but it's in like 8 days...in reality, there is no way in hell we can get 6 more songs done, by the 21st. i dunno...maybe we can (i hope anyway)...oh well, it's just fun. i love performing so much. it actually makes me feel important, which is what i don't get at home...especially when my parents try to discourage me about the whole thing...saying shit like, "you can't make a career out of this band shit. you shouldn't spend so much time doing it." first of all, i'm totally convinced that this won't end in a label or getting famous. it's just a fun thing. apparently my parents don't understand that. i actually think we have the potential to get big, but it would be really hard with 1/2 of us going away to school at the end of the year. anyway...
i don't get why people make fun of caitlin still...aren't they sick of it yet...they've only been doing it for a year! it doesn't really make me feel good. i'm pretty good at hiding it though, like i'm good at hiding everything...
dude...quitting smoking so far hasn't been that hard after like the first week...even though i'm only into the second week or so...but now i don't feel like i need one...so it's all good...now i can live...
september 11th was...i don't know...it just was...
anyway, i think that's everything on my mind that i needed to get off...i'll try to update again soon...hopefully i'm not too busy with school and shit...
...oh and brendan, your "chapter 16" was really good...i still have to read the other 15...lol!
byebye!
i feel weird. scary thoughts have hit me in the past few nights. it pretty much all began on a phone call with dave and mike talking about how we are going to get a label. we kinda decided if we did, that we would not go to college. but i have a chance to get into a good school, and i might never again get this chance. then i thought about after college maybe...but no. i would have a job and everything. i realized that in just a few years, i would never see the friends i have now, again. it scared the hell out of me...i wrote some songs about it, but i just threw them out...i don't know why i only end up thinking of shit like this. i can never think of the good things. oh well...
i'm excited about the show we get to do, but it's in like 8 days...in reality, there is no way in hell we can get 6 more songs done, by the 21st. i dunno...maybe we can (i hope anyway)...oh well, it's just fun. i love performing so much. it actually makes me feel important, which is what i don't get at home...especially when my parents try to discourage me about the whole thing...saying shit like, "you can't make a career out of this band shit. you shouldn't spend so much time doing it." first of all, i'm totally convinced that this won't end in a label or getting famous. it's just a fun thing. apparently my parents don't understand that. i actually think we have the potential to get big, but it would be really hard with 1/2 of us going away to school at the end of the year. anyway...
i don't get why people make fun of caitlin still...aren't they sick of it yet...they've only been doing it for a year! it doesn't really make me feel good. i'm pretty good at hiding it though, like i'm good at hiding everything...
dude...quitting smoking so far hasn't been that hard after like the first week...even though i'm only into the second week or so...but now i don't feel like i need one...so it's all good...now i can live...
september 11th was...i don't know...it just was...
anyway, i think that's everything on my mind that i needed to get off...i'll try to update again soon...hopefully i'm not too busy with school and shit...
...oh and brendan, your "chapter 16" was really good...i still have to read the other 15...lol!
byebye!