last night's dream
I had a very creepy dream last night. I don't remember all of it, but this was the last part: I was lying in my bed in my old bedroom in the house that I grew up in, only the room was barer than it should have been, some of the furniture was missing. I was lying on the wrong side of the bed - the whole time I was growing up I had slept on the side next to the door, but now I was lying on the side nearer the wall. Across from the bed were the two windows and the windowseat, but there were no curtains, and one of the windows was open and wind was blowing in - it was dark outside. I saw movement out of the corner of my eye and I noticed that there was a man's button-up shirt hanging on my partially-open door - it was white, and it was blowing in the wind, but somehow the way the sleeves were moving wasn't consistent with the wind that was blowing, and it felt like the shirt was moving by itself. Then suddenly there was a loud ringing sound from somewhere in the house outside my room. I tried to get up and see what it was, but I couldn't move from the bed. I think I partially woke up at that point but I couldn't wake up all the way and instead I fell back into dreaming sleep, and the exact same thing happened again - like the dream rewound and played over - I was lying on the wrong side of my bed watching this white shirt move, and then the ringing sound happened again. I struggled really hard to move and get off the bed but it was so hard - and then I pulled myself up out of sleep like pulling yourself out of water - all this resistance to coming out the dream - and then I found myself lying in real life in my apartment, and it was 3:30, and I had that scared feeling you get sometimes in a dark quiet apartment; I kept remembering the way the white shirt was moving back and forth, and I was afraid that there was someone in my apartment. Eventually I turned on the light and got up and made myself walk around and of course there was nobody there, but there was just something so creepy in the way my room looked all wrong from the wrong side of the bed, and that white shirt moving in the wind but not with the wind....