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A strange thing has happened to me lately: I've stopped sleeping. Now I just kind of nap on and off through the night. I was never a particularly sound sleeper, but it's never been like this before; I can't seem to lie still or turn off my brain. I lie in bed and shift and toss and my mind jumps around like a hungry bird, and when I open my eyes it's only 12:30, and then it's 1:30, and then it's 3:30, and then it's 5:30...
Odd things happen to you when you don't sleep. You start thinking in a totally different, unstructured way that makes no sense, like you're half-dreaming. You get brilliant ideas that seem extremely stupid in the morning. Sometimes you just glaze over and zone out for a couple hours and stare at the light fixture on the ceiling until you start to see reflections of things that aren't there. When my alarm went off I was completely awake. Shaky and sick-feeling, but awake.
I don't like not sleeping, and I don't know why all of a sudden I'm an insomniac. Maybe I'm just so full of new thoughts and feelings that I just can't relax enough to let them go. But wouldn't you think that my brain would want time to process and settle? One thing's for sure, I can't keep going on like this. Tonight I'm drinking a giant mug of warm milk. And by warm milk I mean Valium. JK. I think.
Odd things happen to you when you don't sleep. You start thinking in a totally different, unstructured way that makes no sense, like you're half-dreaming. You get brilliant ideas that seem extremely stupid in the morning. Sometimes you just glaze over and zone out for a couple hours and stare at the light fixture on the ceiling until you start to see reflections of things that aren't there. When my alarm went off I was completely awake. Shaky and sick-feeling, but awake.
I don't like not sleeping, and I don't know why all of a sudden I'm an insomniac. Maybe I'm just so full of new thoughts and feelings that I just can't relax enough to let them go. But wouldn't you think that my brain would want time to process and settle? One thing's for sure, I can't keep going on like this. Tonight I'm drinking a giant mug of warm milk. And by warm milk I mean Valium. JK. I think.