that much further west
i slept really late today (well, noon) and it feels quite good. i think the thing about treating your education like a job is that self-discipline can often become sheer guilt. if you don't read as much as you'd like to, or you get up ten minutes later than you should, it's hard not to feel a bit shitty. because i understand now, in a way that i only vaguely did before, that you can't really allow yourself much leeway. once you excuse yourself an extra half hour in bed, or coming home from the library a little early, it becomes a day off here and there, and a lecture or two skipped. and then it's gone to shit.
okay maybe that's not the case for everyone. but i never really had any ingrained self-discipline. i had to learn it through practice. and it's only the last few months that i can feel successful in that. but that's okay, because now i do feel like i'm living a life that's sustainable and pleasurable.
but yeah, today i didn't feel guilty or anything. because it's the weekend and i'm allowed to sleep a lot!
i've been reading a book on gilles deleuze called 'intensive science and virtual philosophy' and it's totally great. it's sort of an introductory text to deleuze, but not really. it presents an overview of his ontology in terms of the mathematical and scientific concepts deleuze used to help him develop it - differential geometry, dynamical systems theory, evolutionary biology. stuff i don't know a lot about, but that the text explains in relatively clear terms. makes me excited and makes me want to read more about these things. i wish i had a good maths/science education - i quit doing both after gcse. but i guess i can find books on these things and be a functional dilettante.
emily should have landed in santiago about three hours ago. i hope she's okay. she said she'd try to email me when she got in - not immediately, obviously, no sense rushing to find an internet cafe when you just landed in an exciting new place. but soon. i want to know that she's safe.
um that's it.
bye.
okay maybe that's not the case for everyone. but i never really had any ingrained self-discipline. i had to learn it through practice. and it's only the last few months that i can feel successful in that. but that's okay, because now i do feel like i'm living a life that's sustainable and pleasurable.
but yeah, today i didn't feel guilty or anything. because it's the weekend and i'm allowed to sleep a lot!
i've been reading a book on gilles deleuze called 'intensive science and virtual philosophy' and it's totally great. it's sort of an introductory text to deleuze, but not really. it presents an overview of his ontology in terms of the mathematical and scientific concepts deleuze used to help him develop it - differential geometry, dynamical systems theory, evolutionary biology. stuff i don't know a lot about, but that the text explains in relatively clear terms. makes me excited and makes me want to read more about these things. i wish i had a good maths/science education - i quit doing both after gcse. but i guess i can find books on these things and be a functional dilettante.
emily should have landed in santiago about three hours ago. i hope she's okay. she said she'd try to email me when she got in - not immediately, obviously, no sense rushing to find an internet cafe when you just landed in an exciting new place. but soon. i want to know that she's safe.
um that's it.
bye.