Rant and meme!
So I've been feeling really awkward and it's pissing me off. I HATE feeling awkward and uncertain, and that's just how I feel right now.
This professor that I've been becoming friends with e-mailed the entire class from last semester (when she was my professor, which she is no longer) saying that she was looking for a research assistant for this coming summer. It's a part time position, and will be something regarding Civil Procedure.
Now, I really love Civil Procedure and I know that I get along well with this professor. Also, I enjoy doing research and working collaboratively on written work. Therefore, I applied for the position. She told me that she'd meet with me, but never responded. A few days ago, I ran into her and asked her about it. She admitted that she was avoiding e-mailing me--she said that she was concerned about the fact that we were friends, and mentioned that my grades weren't as competitive as other candidates' (really, I have good grades--but not straight As). She also questioned my writing ability--which really pissed me off because I'm very proud of my writing. Yes, I got a B+ in my Legal Writing course last semester, but is that really so bad? Also, I think it wasn't particularly deserved--but whatever. ANYWAY--the conversation was very fast because we both were pressed for time, so later that night I emailed her a response to her qualms about my qualifications. She had also expressed some concern that we were friends and that I'd hold her hiring someone else against her, which is obviously not true.
So that all happened on Tuesday; then, on Wednesday, I stopped by to say 'hi' and asked her if she got the e-mail, and she said she did. Now, it was just really strange because our interaction on Tuesday wasn't really awkward--but talking to her on Wednesday WAS awkward. I had to ask her a quick question today regarding an unrelated issue, which she answered, but again--I think it was awkward. Now, I could just be PERCEIVING awkwardness (as I tend to do that) but I really don't know.
I've decided to not make any further contact with her until she gets back to me about the research assistant position. If she doesn't get back to be in a couple of weeks, I'll just assume that she hired someone else--but I really hope she has the balls to tell me herself if this is the case. Honestly, I don't expect to get the job--I'm not the most qualified applicant and I wouldn't even hire myself in comparison to the other candidate. What's really bothering me here is that now things are awkward between this professor and I, just when we were becoming friends.
ANYWAY--that was the rant of the day! Now, a meme!!!
THREE THINGS MEMEswoochi
three names you go by:
1. Laura
2. LA (my middle name is Alexis)
3. Ms. Vogel (lol - law school)
three things you like about yourself:
1. good (academic) writer
2. logical when faced with difficult situations
3. I think I'm a good friend--even if I don't see my friends on a regular basis, if they need me, I'm there.
three things you don't like about yourself:
1. I'm lazy when it comes to getting schoolwork done
2. I let myself procrastinate
3. I wish I were smarter (granted, I know I'm smart, but I wish I were like...a genius lol)
three parts of your heritage:
1. Armenian
2. German (Jew)
3. German (Protestant)
three things that scare you:
1. failure
2. not being able to help those around me
3. losing control
three of your everyday essentials:
1. computer
2. cellphone
3. contacts (I'm legally blind, I can't even see as well with my glasses)
three things you are wearing write now:
1. jeans
2. turquoise button-down sweater (it's cute, I love it!)
3. my new black bra from Victoria's Secret that's uber comfortable and looks good. That's right, I said BRA! lol
three of your favourite TV shows:
1. CSI
2. Jeopardy
3. Battlestar Galactica
three of your favourite bands/singers:
1. Ani DiFranco
2. Sublime
3. Jennifer Nettles Band
(three is SO not enough here!!!)
three of your favourite books:
1. Sylvia Plath- "The Bell Jar"
2. Heidegger-"Being and Time"
3. Bronte-Jane Eyre
two truths and one lie:
1. I'm neurotically neat/clean
2. If you let me, I'd probably spend a whole lot longer doing NOTHING.
3. I hate people
(guess which is the lie?! 3.)
three things you want to try in the next 12 months:
1. Wearing suits on a regular basis (ok, more HAVE to than WANT to)
2. getting out of the country at least once (more of a financial and time constraint than anything else)
3. I'm thinking about going vegan--just for the sake of trying something new.
three things you need in a relationship:
1. freedom to be who I am and not feel guilty for it--basically, respect
2. intellectualism--someone who values thought/knowledge/learning
3. a common want for the same kind of lifestyle
three things you just can't do:
1. do my work on time
2. a handstand
3. concentrate for an extended period of time--on ANYTHING
three of your favourite hobbies:
1. ceramics
2. photography
3. philosophy (now it's a hobby! lol)
three things you want to do really badly right now:
1. eat something. but dinner's gonna be at 7 and it's at school--for FREE!!! :D
2. get a response from that prof.
3. sit outside
three jobs you'd consider doing other than the one you have:
1. philosophy professor
2. cultural anthropologist
3. social worker
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Moscow
2. Berlin
3. Armenia (specifically, Yerevan)
three kids names:
1. Ariana
2. Jamie
3. Jonathon
three things you want to do before you die:
1. write a book, maybe
2. find someone else I love
3. graduate law school
swoochi
This professor that I've been becoming friends with e-mailed the entire class from last semester (when she was my professor, which she is no longer) saying that she was looking for a research assistant for this coming summer. It's a part time position, and will be something regarding Civil Procedure.
Now, I really love Civil Procedure and I know that I get along well with this professor. Also, I enjoy doing research and working collaboratively on written work. Therefore, I applied for the position. She told me that she'd meet with me, but never responded. A few days ago, I ran into her and asked her about it. She admitted that she was avoiding e-mailing me--she said that she was concerned about the fact that we were friends, and mentioned that my grades weren't as competitive as other candidates' (really, I have good grades--but not straight As). She also questioned my writing ability--which really pissed me off because I'm very proud of my writing. Yes, I got a B+ in my Legal Writing course last semester, but is that really so bad? Also, I think it wasn't particularly deserved--but whatever. ANYWAY--the conversation was very fast because we both were pressed for time, so later that night I emailed her a response to her qualms about my qualifications. She had also expressed some concern that we were friends and that I'd hold her hiring someone else against her, which is obviously not true.
So that all happened on Tuesday; then, on Wednesday, I stopped by to say 'hi' and asked her if she got the e-mail, and she said she did. Now, it was just really strange because our interaction on Tuesday wasn't really awkward--but talking to her on Wednesday WAS awkward. I had to ask her a quick question today regarding an unrelated issue, which she answered, but again--I think it was awkward. Now, I could just be PERCEIVING awkwardness (as I tend to do that) but I really don't know.
I've decided to not make any further contact with her until she gets back to me about the research assistant position. If she doesn't get back to be in a couple of weeks, I'll just assume that she hired someone else--but I really hope she has the balls to tell me herself if this is the case. Honestly, I don't expect to get the job--I'm not the most qualified applicant and I wouldn't even hire myself in comparison to the other candidate. What's really bothering me here is that now things are awkward between this professor and I, just when we were becoming friends.
ANYWAY--that was the rant of the day! Now, a meme!!!
THREE THINGS MEMEswoochi
three names you go by:
1. Laura
2. LA (my middle name is Alexis)
3. Ms. Vogel (lol - law school)
three things you like about yourself:
1. good (academic) writer
2. logical when faced with difficult situations
3. I think I'm a good friend--even if I don't see my friends on a regular basis, if they need me, I'm there.
three things you don't like about yourself:
1. I'm lazy when it comes to getting schoolwork done
2. I let myself procrastinate
3. I wish I were smarter (granted, I know I'm smart, but I wish I were like...a genius lol)
three parts of your heritage:
1. Armenian
2. German (Jew)
3. German (Protestant)
three things that scare you:
1. failure
2. not being able to help those around me
3. losing control
three of your everyday essentials:
1. computer
2. cellphone
3. contacts (I'm legally blind, I can't even see as well with my glasses)
three things you are wearing write now:
1. jeans
2. turquoise button-down sweater (it's cute, I love it!)
3. my new black bra from Victoria's Secret that's uber comfortable and looks good. That's right, I said BRA! lol
three of your favourite TV shows:
1. CSI
2. Jeopardy
3. Battlestar Galactica
three of your favourite bands/singers:
1. Ani DiFranco
2. Sublime
3. Jennifer Nettles Band
(three is SO not enough here!!!)
three of your favourite books:
1. Sylvia Plath- "The Bell Jar"
2. Heidegger-"Being and Time"
3. Bronte-Jane Eyre
two truths and one lie:
1. I'm neurotically neat/clean
2. If you let me, I'd probably spend a whole lot longer doing NOTHING.
3. I hate people
(guess which is the lie?! 3.)
three things you want to try in the next 12 months:
1. Wearing suits on a regular basis (ok, more HAVE to than WANT to)
2. getting out of the country at least once (more of a financial and time constraint than anything else)
3. I'm thinking about going vegan--just for the sake of trying something new.
three things you need in a relationship:
1. freedom to be who I am and not feel guilty for it--basically, respect
2. intellectualism--someone who values thought/knowledge/learning
3. a common want for the same kind of lifestyle
three things you just can't do:
1. do my work on time
2. a handstand
3. concentrate for an extended period of time--on ANYTHING
three of your favourite hobbies:
1. ceramics
2. photography
3. philosophy (now it's a hobby! lol)
three things you want to do really badly right now:
1. eat something. but dinner's gonna be at 7 and it's at school--for FREE!!! :D
2. get a response from that prof.
3. sit outside
three jobs you'd consider doing other than the one you have:
1. philosophy professor
2. cultural anthropologist
3. social worker
three places you want to go on vacation:
1. Moscow
2. Berlin
3. Armenia (specifically, Yerevan)
three kids names:
1. Ariana
2. Jamie
3. Jonathon
three things you want to do before you die:
1. write a book, maybe
2. find someone else I love
3. graduate law school
swoochi