letter to myself
If i could paint the perfect picture i dont know what it would be. Maybe a place,
maybe a person that means a lot to me who knos. i do kno however that i would be a mix of things. i think that its truly impossible to express all of your feeling into one thing. Its crazy how much things have changed over the last two years. A LOT has changed thats all i can say. some for the better and some for the worst.
Me for the most part hasnt changed for the best. if theres one thing that ive learned from this is that im a hypocrite
and a very lazy one at that. im not proud of who i am! im a 20 year old male that still lives with his mom and is behind on his bills. and i evny rich people for there money but why do i want to have money so bad. i always feel like i have to have nice things to be accepted. but why i mean the only person that we have to impress is GOD right.
Maybe thats were ive gone wrong i havent been on the right path latley i ve been more interrested in making money impressing people and trying to look good.
COLLEGE!!! i want to go im just not there yet. why didnt i go after school? i was lazy i was lazy foolish and stupid but most of all i was to trustfull of people. Hey what if i told you you could make 5000 dollars a week and travel the world doing easy work. who wouldnt jump on that thats what i was told and since it was family i belevied it.
i thought hey why not go do this job for a year make a lot of money then go to college. why not well if theres one thing that i have learned from all of this is that if somthing is to go to be true it most likely is and life will never go as planed Never!! i got screwed on this job i started to make good money for the begining so i took out some loans thinking that it would be paid of in a month. Wrong
the work slowed down and before you know it i was makeing just enough to scrap by. then i started to get stiffed on my checks wasnt getting paid what they told me they would pay me for the job so i quit. came home lucked out working at my freinds dad shop made enough to pay the bills but not to get ahead then i got laid off and im looking for a job.
No Luck michigan sucks for jobs. why am i writeing about what has happend to me?? idk it doesnt matter everyone has there own problems why would anyone want to hear mine. but resintly ive decided im not gonna be that guy who says i want to do this but doesnt do anything about it.
im gonna be in college next year and im gonna be a sycologist i guess will see i sure hope things go like i want but since i kno nothing goes as planned ill have to see this is a writing to myself to my future self i hope you did the right thing Ben i hope when you read this again you not in the same predicument
WHAT EVER IT TAKES BEN WHATEVER IT TAKES NOTHING THATS REALLY WORHT HAVEING IS TO HARD TO FIGHT FOR NOTHING!!!
this my picture so far