Ugly Is Beautiful [A Russia/Prussia 'Almost' FST]
'Almost' meaning not quite love. It's my headcanon for the pairing, which revolves more around a love-for-necessity kind of thing. Mostly takes place during separation via. Berlin wall. Russia wants Prussia, Prussia is desperate and neglected and needing. They find a cold satisfaction in each other, and thus an odd agreement starts. Throughout they have these pangs of what can be considered love, and Russia falls for Prussia with the belief that he will be the one to save the Russian from himself. Prussia feels something - whether out of actual love or because he needs to or else he'll go crazy, he can't tell - and they try to make it work in an odd, odd way that only they can. With the fall of the wall (and a bit before) Prussia wakes up and tells himself that none of it is worth anything, and that falling for his captor is the worst thing he can do. He decides to leave (both literally and figuratively) the relationship before it really even starts, and Russia loses grip on something he never really had control of to begin with. It's like almost reaching something before it is pulled away.
That is the story of this FST.
(Image credit to Kiz-chan at deviantart. Used with permission. Image can be found HERE )
Ugly Is Beautiful
A Russia/Prussia 'Almost' FST.
1. You Don’t Know Me - Ben Folds (Feat. Regina Spektor) [Russia+Prussia]
(About the past. A bit of a duet.)
Russia:
I wanna ask you -
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?
[...]
Prussia:
If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)
Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)
So easily led astray,
An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then
Why the fuck would you want me back?!
Maybe it's because
(You don't know me at all)
2. Alone Here (Ballads of Bunches of Things) - Hawksley Workman [Russia+Prussia; A Duet]
(Prussia is taken by Russia.)
Prussia:
Oh
A sedge or siege of cranes
Risk their hearts to love again
Oh
A float of crocodiles
Tears that wash away your smile
Russia and Prussia:
And I say
That I'm alone here
With the sound of
Conversations neatly placed in tired mouths
I'm alone here
I cut my heart off
I'm keeping lists of all the things that I should be scared of
Russia:
Oh
To be a murderer of crows
Hide the blood stains in the snow
Oh
Lamentation gentle swans
The night will cry for you at dawn
Russia and Prussia:
And I say
That I'm alone here
With the sound of
Conversations neatly placed in tired mouths
I'm alone here
I cut my heart off
I'm keeping lists of all the things that I should be scared of
3. Rain - Hawksley Workman [Prussia/Russia. The past.]
What, what
What if it was simple like the falling rain?
Love comes down and just sinks into your heart
Cause where you fall, fall
Fall so hard it’s ugly just to see your face
Fall so hard the earth beneath you looks the other way
You make it seem so graceful
The peace within your sound
You’re just falling from the sky onto the ground
Pain, pain
Why did I invite you to be here again?
I thought we were through
When I walked away in the rain
4. Your Tears, My Smile - Danko Jones [Prussia-->Russia]
You cry! Like a five-year-old child
at the drop of a dime
I see the welling in your eyes
You cheat! You're cheating on repeat
you're hollow on the inside
but you think you've got it beat
I've never met somebody
with so much hate I'm sorry
but you're just spoiled and rotten
and will be soon forgotten
until that day:
Your tears, my smile!
5. All You Have To Offer - Kurt Nilsen [Russia-->Prussia]
If this is all you have to offer
I think I'll pass
If this is all you have to show for
It'll never last
But, hey - I think you need to calm down
Seems like your mouth has got it's own mind
Or maybe it is just me…
6. Hope - Jack Johnson [Mainly Russia-->Prussia, some Prussia-->Russia too.]
Shadow walks faster than you
You don't really know what to do
Do you think that you're not alone?
You really think that you are immune to
Its gonna get that the best of you
Its gonna lift you up and let you down
It will defeat you then teach you to get back up
After it takes all that
You learn to love
Your reflection is a blur
Out of focus
But in confusion
The frames are suddenly burnt
And in the end of a roll of illusion
A ghost waiting its turn
Now I can see right through
It's a warning that nobody heard
It will teach you to love what you're afraid of
After it takes away all that
You learn to love
But you don't
Always
Have to hold your head
Higher than your heart
You better hope you're not alone
7. Ugly Is Beautiful - David Usher [Russia/Prussia and Prussia/Russia.]
Russia:
Day by day we fall apart
Disintegrate the lightning rains across the sky
But comes too late
To change the mood and save us now
It's criminal the way we love
The way we hate it's almost human
Eyes are opened wide
Stood on the rooftop scream at the sky again
Dance to the radio end of the world we know
Ugly is beautiful beauty in stereo
Thinking of you
Just like the earth spins high as a kite again
There with the river flow end of the life i've known
Ugly is beautiful beauty so terrible
Thinking of you
Prussia:
All the words we throw away
Like paper cuts they just keep piling
Higher and higher throughout the day
Illogical the script we're writing
It's chemical the way we love
The way we hate it's quite inhuman
Eyes are opened wide
Stood on the rooftop scream at the sky again
Dance to the radio end of the world we know
Ugly is beautiful beauty in stereo
Thinking of you
Just like the earth spins high as a kite again
There with the river flow end of the life I've known
Ugly is beautiful beauty so terrible
Thinking of you
8. Ecstasy - Dolores O’Riordan [Prussia/Russia mainly, with some Russia/Prussia. Sex Scene Part One.]
Prussia:
I can feel a pleasure, that's the pain
When I die, I died in vain
I can hear sweet temptations come
Come with me and we will fall
Ecstasy, misunderstood
Will you dance with me
As if I should?
And in the morning
The sun will shine
Still I can't shake her
Get out of my mind
Russia:
I can feel it rushing through my veins
After they withdraw the pain
This must be the essence of it all
Stay with me and we will fall
Ecstasy misunderstood
Will you dance with me
As if I should?
And in the morning
The sun will shine
Still I can't shake her
Get out of my mind
Look you made me do this to myself
9. Happy Endings - David Usher [Prussia/Russia. Sex Scene Part Two.]
In this silence
We design a different life
Strategies of compromise
Lovers lose their appetites
And are we hopeless
Underneath the diamond sky
Longing turns to bitterness
Modern love just can't survive
These happy endings are just illusions
Dying every day that we go by
Here I'm stripped naked for the conclusion
It's killing me a little at a time
And i walk and i fall till i can't feel a thing
I am sick of the sound of my own shattered mind
I don't know who i am
I don't know where we all will be
10. Forest For The Trees - Danko Jones [Prussia-->Russia]
Everybody knows you're in pain
We all know it stems from the shame
Because your actions called for a drastic fall from grace
And if I
Never see
You Again
It'll be to soon to make amends
You suck up life like you're a needle
Sticking in a vein for life
Keep up appearances when needed
You're used to changing overnight
11. Some People Say - David Usher [Russia/Prussia and Prussia/Russia]
Prussia:
Still the snow keeps falling
Till we can't keep out the cold
But they don't know
That my back was broken there
I'm so numb i can hardly move
You don't know
And so you give love too easily some people say
Russia:
And i dreamt i was flying
And i left you so far below
Where i can't see
When the world is crumbling
It's so hard just to watch you bleed
But you can't see
And so we give love too easily some people say
12. It’s Not Me - Hawksley Workman [Russia]
It's not me
i don't usually do this
it's not me
i'm not normally like this
it's not me
so where have i been then?
it's not me
[...]
why can't i feel?
the sadness walks around me
why can't i feel?
all the terrible things that i see
why can't i feel?
how beautiful it's supposed to be,
to me?
13. Games We Play - Kurt Nilsen [Prussia-->Russia]
When you cry,
I just can't prove you wrong
Hell I just play along
I guess it turns you on...
The games we play
The shows we give
The hearts we break
We live through this
the games we play
14. Something Better - Danko Jones. [Prussia-->Russia]
You want something better
When it don't feel right
Never seem to stay too long
You're never satisfied
One day you're gonna wake up
Find you're past your prime
Realize what you should've kept
Is what you left behind
15. Adrift - Jack Johnson [Russia/Prussia and Prussia/Russia. Both a story and a dream.]
Russia:
Your voice is adrift
I can't expect it to sing to me
As if I was the only one
I'll follow you
A leaf that's following the sun
When will my weight be too much for you?
When will these ideas really be my own?
Cause this moment keeps on moving
We were never meant to hold on
Prussia:
This was a scene worth waking up for
When I woke up
You planted me in my own pot
Don't know why
But somehow it just feels so wrong
Russia:
When you set I will be lonely
But when you rise again I'll become the sun
I will shine down upon you
As if you were the only one
16. It’s a Long Life To Always Be Longing - Hawksley Workman [Russia-->Prussia]
There's truth in these eyes, you can rest assured
Salvaged by voices that have no words
Running with fear left ruin in its wake
Is the measure of a man how much love he can fake?
It's a long life, a long life to be always longing
17. If I Had Eyes - Jack Johnson [Russia to Prussia and Prussia to Russia. Internal Thoughts]
Prussia:
If I had eyes in the back of my head
I would have told you that
You looked good
As I walked away
Russia:
If you could've tried to trust the hand that fed
You would've never been hungry
But you’d never really be
Both:
The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore
Prussia:
Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
Just stand still
While we fall
Russia:
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
They won't let me in
Always looking out
18. Come In 2s - Tomi Swick [Russia-->Prussia+Germany]
Just wanted it to be you and me,
didn't expect any of this unwanted company...
I just wanted you to see me,
(wanted you to see me)
wanted you to see me all alone...
Just wanted us to walk along the shore,
than to see another shadow at the door...
I just wanted you to leave me,
(wanted you to leave me)
wanted you to leave me all alone...
It's the same old thing,
it's always more than you...
Tear my heart again,
cause this is what you do...
You always come in 2's! ...
Tear myself, prepare myself for you...
Oh, plan it out, I hope it doesn't fall...
Well I see steps, I hear whispers...
Feel this heat, and I start to shiver, oh! ...
It's the same old thing,
it's always more than you...
Tear my heart again,
cause this is what you do...
You always come in...
And I say it will be fine...
but you had to cross the line...
Can't you see, I'm trying...
I'm trying, you know I'm trying! ...
19. Monsoon - Jack Johnson [Prussia. About Russia, and Freedom]
I feel sorrow for the fear
And everything it brings
Wonder if it will ever sleep
I know you understand
Because you briefly look away
Focusing on nothing
So now everything is clear
Cause there's no one to blame
You got no place to hide
It's only in your mind
And I saw you - in amazement
Stumbling through the day
You told me time - never waits
What is that supposed to mean?
All of life
Is in one drop of the ocean
Waiting to go home
Just waiting to go home
And if the moon
Can turn the tides it can pull the tears
and take them from our eyes
And make them into monsoons
And turn them into mon -
Sooner or later they'll weave their way back to the sea
Gonna finally be free
Yeah, free for a while
Until they break
Like waves of sorrow
Always do, all into time
Because time never waits
20. Stalled Out In The Doorway - Tomi Swick [Russia. He sees Prussia leave him. Prussia hesitates.]
Get out get out,
Boy you know you've made a mess here,
You try you try but it's over,
Get up get up now you're stalled out in the doorway,
Get out get out it's a cold year.
21. Piano Blink - Hawksley Workman [Russia. A summary.]
they say it happens all the time
all the time
that early love will make you blind
as a sun eclipsing
but we just drove, passed all the signs
all the signs
not caring what the wise might say
and what we might be missing
how would we know
that we'd both end up crying?
they say let go
i guess we're still stuck trying
i'm getting nervous
i'm lost in this heartbreak
how long will this love take me down?
somebody gonna hurt somebody
Full Lyrics are available in the download, which is HERE
Reviews are loved.
That is the story of this FST.
(Image credit to Kiz-chan at deviantart. Used with permission. Image can be found HERE )
Ugly Is Beautiful
A Russia/Prussia 'Almost' FST.
1. You Don’t Know Me - Ben Folds (Feat. Regina Spektor) [Russia+Prussia]
(About the past. A bit of a duet.)
Russia:
I wanna ask you -
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?
[...]
Prussia:
If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)
Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)
So easily led astray,
An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then
Why the fuck would you want me back?!
Maybe it's because
(You don't know me at all)
2. Alone Here (Ballads of Bunches of Things) - Hawksley Workman [Russia+Prussia; A Duet]
(Prussia is taken by Russia.)
Prussia:
Oh
A sedge or siege of cranes
Risk their hearts to love again
Oh
A float of crocodiles
Tears that wash away your smile
Russia and Prussia:
And I say
That I'm alone here
With the sound of
Conversations neatly placed in tired mouths
I'm alone here
I cut my heart off
I'm keeping lists of all the things that I should be scared of
Russia:
Oh
To be a murderer of crows
Hide the blood stains in the snow
Oh
Lamentation gentle swans
The night will cry for you at dawn
Russia and Prussia:
And I say
That I'm alone here
With the sound of
Conversations neatly placed in tired mouths
I'm alone here
I cut my heart off
I'm keeping lists of all the things that I should be scared of
3. Rain - Hawksley Workman [Prussia/Russia. The past.]
What, what
What if it was simple like the falling rain?
Love comes down and just sinks into your heart
Cause where you fall, fall
Fall so hard it’s ugly just to see your face
Fall so hard the earth beneath you looks the other way
You make it seem so graceful
The peace within your sound
You’re just falling from the sky onto the ground
Pain, pain
Why did I invite you to be here again?
I thought we were through
When I walked away in the rain
4. Your Tears, My Smile - Danko Jones [Prussia-->Russia]
You cry! Like a five-year-old child
at the drop of a dime
I see the welling in your eyes
You cheat! You're cheating on repeat
you're hollow on the inside
but you think you've got it beat
I've never met somebody
with so much hate I'm sorry
but you're just spoiled and rotten
and will be soon forgotten
until that day:
Your tears, my smile!
5. All You Have To Offer - Kurt Nilsen [Russia-->Prussia]
If this is all you have to offer
I think I'll pass
If this is all you have to show for
It'll never last
But, hey - I think you need to calm down
Seems like your mouth has got it's own mind
Or maybe it is just me…
6. Hope - Jack Johnson [Mainly Russia-->Prussia, some Prussia-->Russia too.]
Shadow walks faster than you
You don't really know what to do
Do you think that you're not alone?
You really think that you are immune to
Its gonna get that the best of you
Its gonna lift you up and let you down
It will defeat you then teach you to get back up
After it takes all that
You learn to love
Your reflection is a blur
Out of focus
But in confusion
The frames are suddenly burnt
And in the end of a roll of illusion
A ghost waiting its turn
Now I can see right through
It's a warning that nobody heard
It will teach you to love what you're afraid of
After it takes away all that
You learn to love
But you don't
Always
Have to hold your head
Higher than your heart
You better hope you're not alone
7. Ugly Is Beautiful - David Usher [Russia/Prussia and Prussia/Russia.]
Russia:
Day by day we fall apart
Disintegrate the lightning rains across the sky
But comes too late
To change the mood and save us now
It's criminal the way we love
The way we hate it's almost human
Eyes are opened wide
Stood on the rooftop scream at the sky again
Dance to the radio end of the world we know
Ugly is beautiful beauty in stereo
Thinking of you
Just like the earth spins high as a kite again
There with the river flow end of the life i've known
Ugly is beautiful beauty so terrible
Thinking of you
Prussia:
All the words we throw away
Like paper cuts they just keep piling
Higher and higher throughout the day
Illogical the script we're writing
It's chemical the way we love
The way we hate it's quite inhuman
Eyes are opened wide
Stood on the rooftop scream at the sky again
Dance to the radio end of the world we know
Ugly is beautiful beauty in stereo
Thinking of you
Just like the earth spins high as a kite again
There with the river flow end of the life I've known
Ugly is beautiful beauty so terrible
Thinking of you
8. Ecstasy - Dolores O’Riordan [Prussia/Russia mainly, with some Russia/Prussia. Sex Scene Part One.]
Prussia:
I can feel a pleasure, that's the pain
When I die, I died in vain
I can hear sweet temptations come
Come with me and we will fall
Ecstasy, misunderstood
Will you dance with me
As if I should?
And in the morning
The sun will shine
Still I can't shake her
Get out of my mind
Russia:
I can feel it rushing through my veins
After they withdraw the pain
This must be the essence of it all
Stay with me and we will fall
Ecstasy misunderstood
Will you dance with me
As if I should?
And in the morning
The sun will shine
Still I can't shake her
Get out of my mind
Look you made me do this to myself
9. Happy Endings - David Usher [Prussia/Russia. Sex Scene Part Two.]
In this silence
We design a different life
Strategies of compromise
Lovers lose their appetites
And are we hopeless
Underneath the diamond sky
Longing turns to bitterness
Modern love just can't survive
These happy endings are just illusions
Dying every day that we go by
Here I'm stripped naked for the conclusion
It's killing me a little at a time
And i walk and i fall till i can't feel a thing
I am sick of the sound of my own shattered mind
I don't know who i am
I don't know where we all will be
10. Forest For The Trees - Danko Jones [Prussia-->Russia]
Everybody knows you're in pain
We all know it stems from the shame
Because your actions called for a drastic fall from grace
And if I
Never see
You Again
It'll be to soon to make amends
You suck up life like you're a needle
Sticking in a vein for life
Keep up appearances when needed
You're used to changing overnight
11. Some People Say - David Usher [Russia/Prussia and Prussia/Russia]
Prussia:
Still the snow keeps falling
Till we can't keep out the cold
But they don't know
That my back was broken there
I'm so numb i can hardly move
You don't know
And so you give love too easily some people say
Russia:
And i dreamt i was flying
And i left you so far below
Where i can't see
When the world is crumbling
It's so hard just to watch you bleed
But you can't see
And so we give love too easily some people say
12. It’s Not Me - Hawksley Workman [Russia]
It's not me
i don't usually do this
it's not me
i'm not normally like this
it's not me
so where have i been then?
it's not me
[...]
why can't i feel?
the sadness walks around me
why can't i feel?
all the terrible things that i see
why can't i feel?
how beautiful it's supposed to be,
to me?
13. Games We Play - Kurt Nilsen [Prussia-->Russia]
When you cry,
I just can't prove you wrong
Hell I just play along
I guess it turns you on...
The games we play
The shows we give
The hearts we break
We live through this
the games we play
14. Something Better - Danko Jones. [Prussia-->Russia]
You want something better
When it don't feel right
Never seem to stay too long
You're never satisfied
One day you're gonna wake up
Find you're past your prime
Realize what you should've kept
Is what you left behind
15. Adrift - Jack Johnson [Russia/Prussia and Prussia/Russia. Both a story and a dream.]
Russia:
Your voice is adrift
I can't expect it to sing to me
As if I was the only one
I'll follow you
A leaf that's following the sun
When will my weight be too much for you?
When will these ideas really be my own?
Cause this moment keeps on moving
We were never meant to hold on
Prussia:
This was a scene worth waking up for
When I woke up
You planted me in my own pot
Don't know why
But somehow it just feels so wrong
Russia:
When you set I will be lonely
But when you rise again I'll become the sun
I will shine down upon you
As if you were the only one
16. It’s a Long Life To Always Be Longing - Hawksley Workman [Russia-->Prussia]
There's truth in these eyes, you can rest assured
Salvaged by voices that have no words
Running with fear left ruin in its wake
Is the measure of a man how much love he can fake?
It's a long life, a long life to be always longing
17. If I Had Eyes - Jack Johnson [Russia to Prussia and Prussia to Russia. Internal Thoughts]
Prussia:
If I had eyes in the back of my head
I would have told you that
You looked good
As I walked away
Russia:
If you could've tried to trust the hand that fed
You would've never been hungry
But you’d never really be
Both:
The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore
Prussia:
Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
Just stand still
While we fall
Russia:
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
They won't let me in
Always looking out
18. Come In 2s - Tomi Swick [Russia-->Prussia+Germany]
Just wanted it to be you and me,
didn't expect any of this unwanted company...
I just wanted you to see me,
(wanted you to see me)
wanted you to see me all alone...
Just wanted us to walk along the shore,
than to see another shadow at the door...
I just wanted you to leave me,
(wanted you to leave me)
wanted you to leave me all alone...
It's the same old thing,
it's always more than you...
Tear my heart again,
cause this is what you do...
You always come in 2's! ...
Tear myself, prepare myself for you...
Oh, plan it out, I hope it doesn't fall...
Well I see steps, I hear whispers...
Feel this heat, and I start to shiver, oh! ...
It's the same old thing,
it's always more than you...
Tear my heart again,
cause this is what you do...
You always come in...
And I say it will be fine...
but you had to cross the line...
Can't you see, I'm trying...
I'm trying, you know I'm trying! ...
19. Monsoon - Jack Johnson [Prussia. About Russia, and Freedom]
I feel sorrow for the fear
And everything it brings
Wonder if it will ever sleep
I know you understand
Because you briefly look away
Focusing on nothing
So now everything is clear
Cause there's no one to blame
You got no place to hide
It's only in your mind
And I saw you - in amazement
Stumbling through the day
You told me time - never waits
What is that supposed to mean?
All of life
Is in one drop of the ocean
Waiting to go home
Just waiting to go home
And if the moon
Can turn the tides it can pull the tears
and take them from our eyes
And make them into monsoons
And turn them into mon -
Sooner or later they'll weave their way back to the sea
Gonna finally be free
Yeah, free for a while
Until they break
Like waves of sorrow
Always do, all into time
Because time never waits
20. Stalled Out In The Doorway - Tomi Swick [Russia. He sees Prussia leave him. Prussia hesitates.]
Get out get out,
Boy you know you've made a mess here,
You try you try but it's over,
Get up get up now you're stalled out in the doorway,
Get out get out it's a cold year.
21. Piano Blink - Hawksley Workman [Russia. A summary.]
they say it happens all the time
all the time
that early love will make you blind
as a sun eclipsing
but we just drove, passed all the signs
all the signs
not caring what the wise might say
and what we might be missing
how would we know
that we'd both end up crying?
they say let go
i guess we're still stuck trying
i'm getting nervous
i'm lost in this heartbreak
how long will this love take me down?
somebody gonna hurt somebody
Full Lyrics are available in the download, which is HERE
Reviews are loved.