Whats wrong?!
The past 2 weeks have been hell for me in more ways than one. I've never felt so alone or abandoned in my entire life. I'm going to be honest, I haven't slept well since wednesday of last week, ssome nights I'm haunted by nightmares, and some nights I can't sleep at all. Its been as though bad things happen to me like dominos. After one bad thing happens another one happens.
How ever I've had time to think about everything in the past 2 weeks. There are things that I haven't gotten used to yet, and maybe I never will. Some of the things that have happened, I still don't know why or understand.
At work all the things I used to be responsible for have been taken away from me, with out any one telling me why. Like the truck, I've been working the truck there for 3 years, and its taken away from me with out any reason. Then the best people I've ever had the privilege to work with have been taken out of my store, and I've been left there by myself. The new store manager at my store has been nick named the McDonald's Natzi. I plan on putting in for a transfer, and if I don't get it I may considor putting in my 2 weeks.
My personal life isn't looking all that good either. I'm single again, in hopes of being best frends for as while will lead to a stronger relationship between me and Martha, and hopefuly something more. Of course I understand why, and everything. I guess its just the thought the occasional reminder of what we used to be that gets to me, and puts a tear to my eye. Don't get me wrong, I think about her everyday, and deep down inside the way I feel about her hasn't changed although our relationship has. Then 3 of my friends were killed on Saturday, and 2 more are in critical condition. Which hasn't been going all to well for me, considoring I was supposed to be with them that night. Who knows with my luck I would of been one of the 3 who I had to identify.
Nobody even bothers to ask how my day was, or say I love you, not even my parents. I guess you can say that I feel as though I don't matter anymore. I bet that if I were to disappear for a while no one would notice.
But yeah, that was my past 2 weeks.
<3 Sean
How ever I've had time to think about everything in the past 2 weeks. There are things that I haven't gotten used to yet, and maybe I never will. Some of the things that have happened, I still don't know why or understand.
At work all the things I used to be responsible for have been taken away from me, with out any one telling me why. Like the truck, I've been working the truck there for 3 years, and its taken away from me with out any reason. Then the best people I've ever had the privilege to work with have been taken out of my store, and I've been left there by myself. The new store manager at my store has been nick named the McDonald's Natzi. I plan on putting in for a transfer, and if I don't get it I may considor putting in my 2 weeks.
My personal life isn't looking all that good either. I'm single again, in hopes of being best frends for as while will lead to a stronger relationship between me and Martha, and hopefuly something more. Of course I understand why, and everything. I guess its just the thought the occasional reminder of what we used to be that gets to me, and puts a tear to my eye. Don't get me wrong, I think about her everyday, and deep down inside the way I feel about her hasn't changed although our relationship has. Then 3 of my friends were killed on Saturday, and 2 more are in critical condition. Which hasn't been going all to well for me, considoring I was supposed to be with them that night. Who knows with my luck I would of been one of the 3 who I had to identify.
Nobody even bothers to ask how my day was, or say I love you, not even my parents. I guess you can say that I feel as though I don't matter anymore. I bet that if I were to disappear for a while no one would notice.
But yeah, that was my past 2 weeks.
<3 Sean