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[apoeticdeath36]

i spent my day off sitting in front of a mirror trying to blow smoke rings.
i cant do it.

People in new relationships are extremely interesting and should be studied.
I look at the people I know who have only been dating
for a month or so and they're so cute.
a little on the obcessed side but i know that i was too.
Its just, ive never been in a long term relationship before
and i never knew that things changed this much.
I never understood how fake and meaningless
all that cute "i love you" stuff was.
On the other hand I never understood how much i would miss it.
When you become comfortable with someone in every way (
physically and emotionally) some of the mystery dies.
it isnt as exciting. but it is. in a new way.
You cant really love someone until you know the completely
thats why love at first sight is bullshit.
i guess you never stop experiencing new things you just
become less thrilled and excited about every little thing.
I suppose the key is finding someone you will never get bored with.
I think i did.

Also, i feel rather stupid for being worried about colton.
after this weekend i realized that its all just fun.
there no real harm to it.
someone remind me why i ever stopped again.