I have a question, I would like everyone to read this.
I want to know exactly what it is about me that is so hard to like. Why does everyone dislike me? I know I sound very emo right now, but it's true. Kris loves me, I just don’t see how other people that love her, can’t accept me. I can only think of one said person, who, no matter what they think of me has always been kind to me.
It seems like no matter what I do, no on wants to be my friend, no one wants to even have a conversation with me. Is it because I am opinionated? Because I "hate" a lot of things in our society? Is it right to hate someone for their opinions? I don't hate anyone simply because they disagree with me, that's just immature.
I have never done anything to hurt anyone, at least not that I know of, sure I'm sarcastic and bitter but so is everyone I know.
Certain people have been very mean and hostile toward me lately, and it really hurts my feelings. I want to confront them, but we were friends once or at least I thought we were, so I don’t want to make it worse.
My best friend said some very insulting lies about me recently in a letter to my parents. That rips my heart out, I still can’t believe he would do this, joking or not.
My brother has become something that he vowed he never would become; in fact our group of friends was torn asunder because he accused me of turning Kris into what he himself has become, it just isn’t right. I’m shocked by all of this, I really do care about him, and I want our friendship back.
Of all my friends, or people I think/thought are/were my friends, their parents have almost always hated my guts, even Kris’ parents haven’t fully warmed up to me. My own stepfather couldn’t stand me for the longest time, and we still clash on a lot of levels. The only adults I have ever deeply bonded with are my mom, my uncle, and Nan and Bop. And I have a very big family. Even my father and I almost always end up fighting when we talk.
I even joined the Mormon religion to bond closer to my mom, and to be accepted by my step-dad. It also gave me my best friend, but my heart was never really into the religion, I just used it as a way to help myself, and it worked. It’s like I had to be fake, to get close to Steve, after we were close, he like me for who I was, but it took me faking a devotion to a religion, to get close to him.
I don’t intend to sound whiny or to complain, I haven’t said anything in so long, and I’m not asking for apologies or explanations from anyone, I just want an answer to my question.
So if you’re reading this, I don’t care who you are, please just tell me what it is about me that makes people dislike me, I really want to know. Be honest, be cruel, I don’t care, just let me know.
Please...
It seems like no matter what I do, no on wants to be my friend, no one wants to even have a conversation with me. Is it because I am opinionated? Because I "hate" a lot of things in our society? Is it right to hate someone for their opinions? I don't hate anyone simply because they disagree with me, that's just immature.
I have never done anything to hurt anyone, at least not that I know of, sure I'm sarcastic and bitter but so is everyone I know.
Certain people have been very mean and hostile toward me lately, and it really hurts my feelings. I want to confront them, but we were friends once or at least I thought we were, so I don’t want to make it worse.
My best friend said some very insulting lies about me recently in a letter to my parents. That rips my heart out, I still can’t believe he would do this, joking or not.
My brother has become something that he vowed he never would become; in fact our group of friends was torn asunder because he accused me of turning Kris into what he himself has become, it just isn’t right. I’m shocked by all of this, I really do care about him, and I want our friendship back.
Of all my friends, or people I think/thought are/were my friends, their parents have almost always hated my guts, even Kris’ parents haven’t fully warmed up to me. My own stepfather couldn’t stand me for the longest time, and we still clash on a lot of levels. The only adults I have ever deeply bonded with are my mom, my uncle, and Nan and Bop. And I have a very big family. Even my father and I almost always end up fighting when we talk.
I even joined the Mormon religion to bond closer to my mom, and to be accepted by my step-dad. It also gave me my best friend, but my heart was never really into the religion, I just used it as a way to help myself, and it worked. It’s like I had to be fake, to get close to Steve, after we were close, he like me for who I was, but it took me faking a devotion to a religion, to get close to him.
I don’t intend to sound whiny or to complain, I haven’t said anything in so long, and I’m not asking for apologies or explanations from anyone, I just want an answer to my question.
So if you’re reading this, I don’t care who you are, please just tell me what it is about me that makes people dislike me, I really want to know. Be honest, be cruel, I don’t care, just let me know.
Please...