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My birthday was nice I guess. I got to try out India Palace for the first time..I like Kohinoor better. My parents, grandparents, and victor took me. One person called to tell me happy birthday but it was on an answering machine message. My dad didnt call me on my birthday for the first time in history. i had seen him a few days before and he didnt say a word about it then either. It really upsets me that he NEVER makes an effort to be my father. He's always expecting ME to make plans or to go visit him. What about the effort on HIS part? Hes always too busy playing bunco with his wife, attending bullshit christian youth conferences and playing father to his step daughters children. And then he goes around and complains to me as if im not a good daughter. I feel like he did this to get back at me for something, but ive done nothing wrong. It goes to show how extremely low he is. Ive been trying to make my relationship with him more genuine and he runs off like a fucking coward. I guess I do prefer to see the real him rather than let his "im so happy" front continue. I should write a screenplay called "The Stepford Fathers". And now Ive found out hes the godamn machine. FUCK HIM. I dont need to deal with his bullshit priorities. And the whole 'friend' thing bugs me too. I have ALWAYS made the effort into spending time with friends, yet if I back away, not one person who claims to be my friend actually makes an attempt to spend time with me. WHY MUST I ALWAYS BE THE ONE TO MAKE THE EFFORT...ISNT THIS SUPPOSED TO BE AN EQUAL THING??? If I didnt have Victor, Id be going crazy. According to what everyone may think, I AM NEVER BUSY. So either put down the fucking booze and call me or just go the fuck away. Anyways, the ice cream cake was nice...mint chocolate chip. And were leaving for the beach on sunday, good times. I bought an aquarium, two african dwarf frogs, two golden mollies and a black mystery snail which i named Abagail. I love my aquarium and countless other things.