I am dellusional. I am destruction.
I fear I may soon tear away from everything completely.
I will shatter it all to bits and incinerate all that I have come to understand and believe.
That the only way out is out of me.
The only solution becoming someone else.
Someone new, fresh, clean, and more powerful.
Hidden, but powerful.
That is who I am.
The waves of hidden destruction and pulses of creation.
What brings forth birth in yet also death.
The black abyss, the white light.
The ultimate.
Is that who I am?
Is that really me?
Is this person, Tyler Kianka, truly just that?
Or is he the excess, the waste of history and personality that makes him human.
Is he his personality, structure, beliefs, and thoughts...
Or is he the form I am trying to reach.
Perhaps both
Perhaps neither
That's the real trick and beauty to it
I could be anyone
I could be anything
It's almost as if I know some key points to this story but not the whole plot
Some of the parts though not all the details
Is it like that with everyone?
Do they just ignore it?
Or am I more 'open' to such a sight
Maybe I'm just imagining everything
Maybe I am..
The last time I saw you was....
Awhile ago
I remember looking at you and feeling the weakened connection between us
How it seemed severed and almost bleeding
How i wanted to let you know I still care about you
That I was sorry for assuming the worse and didn't tell you in time I wanted to try
Maybe I can next time
Maybe..
Questions are infinite
Answers are not
Hahaha, why do I always have a thing for challenges
Those of which I should know better for but cannot help but feel towards
It's ironic
Some of the people I care for and feel strongest for
Are those of which, for one reason or another, I should not
Be it by other's opinions, my own acknowledgment of, or just from any perspective.
I cannot help it!
I truly cannot
There does seem to be an almost fetish for 'wrongful relations'
But at the same time I also very much do like the person, more than just a friend
Perhaps it's an odd mixture of both
Or could very well be one or the either
I do believe it is both
For me love and lust are that of a venn diagram
Both mostly their own area but also together when intersected
Possibilities endless
Destiny finite
It's not just either or
It's also both or neither
Both in yet neither
It will be a book
I swear it
I will shatter it all to bits and incinerate all that I have come to understand and believe.
That the only way out is out of me.
The only solution becoming someone else.
Someone new, fresh, clean, and more powerful.
Hidden, but powerful.
That is who I am.
The waves of hidden destruction and pulses of creation.
What brings forth birth in yet also death.
The black abyss, the white light.
The ultimate.
Is that who I am?
Is that really me?
Is this person, Tyler Kianka, truly just that?
Or is he the excess, the waste of history and personality that makes him human.
Is he his personality, structure, beliefs, and thoughts...
Or is he the form I am trying to reach.
Perhaps both
Perhaps neither
That's the real trick and beauty to it
I could be anyone
I could be anything
It's almost as if I know some key points to this story but not the whole plot
Some of the parts though not all the details
Is it like that with everyone?
Do they just ignore it?
Or am I more 'open' to such a sight
Maybe I'm just imagining everything
Maybe I am..
The last time I saw you was....
Awhile ago
I remember looking at you and feeling the weakened connection between us
How it seemed severed and almost bleeding
How i wanted to let you know I still care about you
That I was sorry for assuming the worse and didn't tell you in time I wanted to try
Maybe I can next time
Maybe..
Questions are infinite
Answers are not
Hahaha, why do I always have a thing for challenges
Those of which I should know better for but cannot help but feel towards
It's ironic
Some of the people I care for and feel strongest for
Are those of which, for one reason or another, I should not
Be it by other's opinions, my own acknowledgment of, or just from any perspective.
I cannot help it!
I truly cannot
There does seem to be an almost fetish for 'wrongful relations'
But at the same time I also very much do like the person, more than just a friend
Perhaps it's an odd mixture of both
Or could very well be one or the either
I do believe it is both
For me love and lust are that of a venn diagram
Both mostly their own area but also together when intersected
Possibilities endless
Destiny finite
It's not just either or
It's also both or neither
Both in yet neither
It will be a book
I swear it