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[apnenraeezd]

im happy but im not happy at the same time
im gonna miss swimming
i wish i had boyfriend
i wish i felt that my friends were always there for me
i wish i still had that one guy friend i can call up and just cry too
i wish i was doing better in school
i hope i make softball
i wish i did better in sections
i wish i was more confident about the way i look
i wish i felt pretty, even when people say i am pretty
i wish i didnt miss pat so much, bc i miss him a whole lot

but im lucky to have the friends i have, i dont know where i would be without them
im lucky to have my family, and have them come cheer me on even if i do bad
and they still have postive things to say to me even if i screw up
mayb im lucky i dont have a boyfriend
im not doing that bad in school just wish i was doing better

-she totally ruined the bit of confidence i had in myself

i want this weekend to be good
i need this weekend to be good
i just want to go out and party
and forget everything for now