Arbet nu!

Mar 30, 2006 23:53

Kevin lambasted me for not knowing my shit. Specifically, I didn't know about locking up Programs at 11:00 because Maintenance always does it for me without me asking.

Three things:
(1) I don't do well with criticism. I'm also a very defensive person; I've noticed this a lot in the last couple of years. I think it has something to do with the relationship between my parents and I.

(2) I don't think I'm imagining the superior-inferior dynamic between Kevin and I. I know that that's built into such a relationship, as he's my supervisor - but I also get the feeling he's doing that thing that guys do with other guys where they establish their dominance without really thinking about it. Goddamn, I hate that shit, even if it's just my imagination.

(3) I miss having friend-coworkers a la Cristina, Denise and Lara; we'd fuck shit up together and blast music at the end of the night as we mopped up the filth on the floor of Quizno's. In fact, the only coworker I could be good friends with is Avani, who only works when I'm in class.

I've only been on this job for a month and a half, but I'm getting the feeling that these coworkers, much like the people in my dorm, are friendly acquaintances and only that. That is liable to change, but its not looking like that will happen.

As usually seems to be the case when I'm on any sort of work team, I think I'm establishing myself as the eccentric coworker who talks too much about obscure things and has a strange sense of humor. This is both depressing and amusing to me, like a weak-smile joke.

My favorite coworkers are Rica, Philip, Avani and Darren. Unfortunately for me, Tristian, Sam M. and Kevin are the coworkers I'll regularly be working with. Tristian bugs me with the smell of idiocy he seems to exude, Sam M. is as exciting and responsive as a fucking bowl of lukewarm water and Big Dawg "K-Unit" Kevin makes me pretty uncomfortable in general.

My inability to relate well to people and general awkwardness around people surfaced at the meeting earlier. Sigh. People depress the shit out of me sometimes.

Srsly.

Well, even if I'm feeling a little bit depressed in general, I am listening to Solvent. Solvent makes me feel like a kid in a dew-drenched field before the sun gets hot.

Omarly yours,
Omar.

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