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Well Jay came home and suprised us wth a visit the other night. I was just laying on the couch watching family guy when he came in and scared me because i didn't expect him. Good suprise though. We went to Tim's house on tuesday night and split on a Texas mickey. That was fun...ooo hangover though. We went and suprised my mom the next day and had supper with her. Sometimes I wish I could see her more then I do but it's hard. I miss her though..
Darrick keeps calling me and asking me for this picture i made for the band a long ass time ago when I was in the band but I cant find it and my mom blanked the harddrive on her computer so there isn't any other exsisting copies left which kinda sucks because he's going to freak out on me but really I don't care because I pretty much hate his guts and everyone associated with him. I dunno but I have alot more better things to do then sit in a basement and snort coke with losers that just want to get high and talk about people.
I dyed my hair brown, I'll take a picture later and try and post it on here. I got a digital camera for christmas and its pretty cool. Only problem is I dont have a picture program so I can't shrink the photo sizes. I tried to post a picture of Mike and I the other day but it loaded fuckin huge. (http://www.geocities.com/jordison1maggot/100_0310.jpg)
Things with Mike have been great. He' sweet guy and for once I actualy feel pretty happy. I used to think in the past that I loved Brendan and Darrick, but you know untill I was with Mike I never knew what love really was. I mistook weird feeling I had for people as love and now that I actually have experienced love it's so different and great. We went to Cuba in december and it was the best vacation I ever went on. He'd put flowers in my hair and say things that were so sweet. There was this person at one of the bars on the resort we were drinking at that came up to me and poked me in the stomach and asked pregnant? And i was like, No deffinitly not. and he was like...Oh I get it, your just fat. I got really upset because I was tired and pretty drunk so I left and cried and Mike got upset and hugged me and said Your not fat, not even close to fat. Your perfect and you know what? even if someone else thinks you are, it shouldnt matter. All that matters is what I think and I think your beautiful and I love you more then anything. Your the person I want to spend the rest of my life with get married one day long down the road. It was so sweet..
Found out this week that Brenda has two breast cancer lumps and she's losing her hearing, and has liver failure. Yep...she aint going to be around to see 50 by the looks of it and it sucks because my dad is going to be hurt.
On friday we are having people over to say hi/bye to Jay before he flies out to Alberta for more training. It's looking like he might have to go on Tour in August to Afghan but he's excited to I guess I'm happy for him.
Been thinking alot about things, my life, my family, my friends and I've realized alot lately. I stopped hangging out with the poeple that I really cared about and loved to hang out with people that just fucked me up. I miss my old friends and having real friends that I could talkt o about anything, and actually have fun with. I need to get ahold of alot of the poeple I miss. Been trying to get ahold of Jamie but it's been proving impossible which kinda sucks.
I'm probably going to get fired from autoliv soon but I dont really mind because I've been looking for a new job lately. I cant stand working at Autoliv anymore. It's the stupidest job I have ever had and I dont want to work constant 12 hours shifts anymore. I've basically called in everyday I was suppsoed to work in the past two weeks but even if they called me todfay and said that I was fired, I think that I would just laugh.
Well I'm going to go get ready, been lazy.
Darrick keeps calling me and asking me for this picture i made for the band a long ass time ago when I was in the band but I cant find it and my mom blanked the harddrive on her computer so there isn't any other exsisting copies left which kinda sucks because he's going to freak out on me but really I don't care because I pretty much hate his guts and everyone associated with him. I dunno but I have alot more better things to do then sit in a basement and snort coke with losers that just want to get high and talk about people.
I dyed my hair brown, I'll take a picture later and try and post it on here. I got a digital camera for christmas and its pretty cool. Only problem is I dont have a picture program so I can't shrink the photo sizes. I tried to post a picture of Mike and I the other day but it loaded fuckin huge. (http://www.geocities.com/jordison1maggot/100_0310.jpg)
Things with Mike have been great. He' sweet guy and for once I actualy feel pretty happy. I used to think in the past that I loved Brendan and Darrick, but you know untill I was with Mike I never knew what love really was. I mistook weird feeling I had for people as love and now that I actually have experienced love it's so different and great. We went to Cuba in december and it was the best vacation I ever went on. He'd put flowers in my hair and say things that were so sweet. There was this person at one of the bars on the resort we were drinking at that came up to me and poked me in the stomach and asked pregnant? And i was like, No deffinitly not. and he was like...Oh I get it, your just fat. I got really upset because I was tired and pretty drunk so I left and cried and Mike got upset and hugged me and said Your not fat, not even close to fat. Your perfect and you know what? even if someone else thinks you are, it shouldnt matter. All that matters is what I think and I think your beautiful and I love you more then anything. Your the person I want to spend the rest of my life with get married one day long down the road. It was so sweet..
Found out this week that Brenda has two breast cancer lumps and she's losing her hearing, and has liver failure. Yep...she aint going to be around to see 50 by the looks of it and it sucks because my dad is going to be hurt.
On friday we are having people over to say hi/bye to Jay before he flies out to Alberta for more training. It's looking like he might have to go on Tour in August to Afghan but he's excited to I guess I'm happy for him.
Been thinking alot about things, my life, my family, my friends and I've realized alot lately. I stopped hangging out with the poeple that I really cared about and loved to hang out with people that just fucked me up. I miss my old friends and having real friends that I could talkt o about anything, and actually have fun with. I need to get ahold of alot of the poeple I miss. Been trying to get ahold of Jamie but it's been proving impossible which kinda sucks.
I'm probably going to get fired from autoliv soon but I dont really mind because I've been looking for a new job lately. I cant stand working at Autoliv anymore. It's the stupidest job I have ever had and I dont want to work constant 12 hours shifts anymore. I've basically called in everyday I was suppsoed to work in the past two weeks but even if they called me todfay and said that I was fired, I think that I would just laugh.
Well I'm going to go get ready, been lazy.