(no subject)
I think about you a lot. I know I shouldn't but I don't think there is anything I can do. You are the love of my life and you are no longer in my life. I don't care what the reasons are for us to not be in touch anymore because I know that I wish we were. We are both in relationships and I know that my intense feelings for you would make us being friends impossible, because you can't be platonic with someone you love or with someone who loves you. So am I begging you to talk to me again? No. Am I even asking? Not really. If I were that desperate I would probably try and get in touch through any of the various ways I know how. I respect you and myself and our significant others too much to cross that line. I am rational enough to know that it would be too big of an impact to have a real connection again. I know all this but I still want it. I still want you and I want you in my life and I want to be your friend and your lover and your everything again. But more importantly than any of that, I just want to know there is no hate or animosity or pain between us anymore and that we can forgive each other for everything that happened.