Jul 07, 2005 11:58
I am sick of myself.
I am sick of being simply the entertainer with nothing else to offer but laughs and compliments.
I am sick of being a trophy.
I am sick of not having dinner because the one MALE who should care, doesn't.
I am sick of being sick because I don't have a parent to buy my medicane.
I am sick of liking every one and never being liked back.
I am sick of my stupid little friends and their stupid little drugs.
Take my advice, look I am offering something besides a little song and dance. Drugs will get you no where. NO WHERE. I wish you could learn like I did. It hurts but you aren't a dumb little fuck head anymore. PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM THEM. I know I hated when people would tell me to stop and I wanted to rebel. But that was only because those people were the people who had never done it, or even seen it for that matter. Don't be dumb. I know you (being Eden) are way better and smarter than that. I don't know about Richard, but I know you are hurting your family and they DO NOT deserve it.
I hope you all go OD or something.