clawed back sanity on sunday night: mad again on monday
I really need some kind of service where I can just have someone on call for when I'm at work so I can scream in someone's face for eight hours instead of desperately posting more and more insane statuses on social media hoping that I can scrabble some interaction to distract me from the overwhelming sense of threat conveyed by what I have to read which is repeatedly triggering meltdowns because "horrifying unavoidable threat to your existence you can do nothing about" is bad but "facing that without any support" is basically MY ENTIRE EXPERIENCE OF ADOLESCENCE AND A LOT OF MY CHILDHOOD and unsurprisingly MAKES ME CRAZY