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It is easier to look at a historical figure or fictional character and see parts of yourself reflected in them, and to feel sympathetic to those parts and say "that shaped you and it was a shitty thing" of them than it is to do of yourself.
[Loz describing his mother trying to "beat the free will out of him" or the way his older brother Robert "disappeared into her"; his savage self-analysis & cold trampling of his own fears and desires, and constant attempts to escape from being a human being].
This isn't the post I was planning on making but the one I was planning on making defies articulation despite some ungainly attempts to hash out what the fuck I mean by talking to G. Ideally I'd have talked to K but, you know. He did go and do the thing.
[What would Loz say? Something about not measuring yourself by the approval of other men. The problem with that, Loz, my old chumrade in arms, is that you carry too long a yardstick for your own use, and I suspect I can't read my own numbers. That's all.]
Not articulate at all.
[Loz describing his mother trying to "beat the free will out of him" or the way his older brother Robert "disappeared into her"; his savage self-analysis & cold trampling of his own fears and desires, and constant attempts to escape from being a human being].
This isn't the post I was planning on making but the one I was planning on making defies articulation despite some ungainly attempts to hash out what the fuck I mean by talking to G. Ideally I'd have talked to K but, you know. He did go and do the thing.
[What would Loz say? Something about not measuring yourself by the approval of other men. The problem with that, Loz, my old chumrade in arms, is that you carry too long a yardstick for your own use, and I suspect I can't read my own numbers. That's all.]
Not articulate at all.