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I think I have an idea of what to write for this fic now. It's pedestrian, but it will be better than the 900-odd words of directionless, idiotic, characterless ooze that I have committed thus far. It does mean starting from scratch, but it shouldn't take more than a couple of days? I would say "a day" but I have a book cover and shit to do as well. I fucking hate the post-November braindrain. I am also crazy alarmed by the number of deadlines I gave for myself as "January". Self, self. It's December. You are basically useless for this entire month. Stop trying to do shit, just read a goddamn book and sleep a lot.
Alright on Wednesday someone cuntpunch me and make me start work on edits for The Other Daughter so I can get it to a proofreader by Christmas?
1. if you were a fairy, where would you live?
In someone's imagination, because they're not real.
2. who was your first love? does it matter?
My first love was a chap known round these parts as GWWL. I would say he mattered, the way that everyone matters, and I would say that your first love matters because it does tend to shape a little your expectations and fears for future loves, whether you're actively seeking the same thing or seeking to avoid the fuck out of the same thing.
3. do you see ghosts?
I hallucinate but I don't "see ghosts".
4. what is beauty?
An aesthetic experience which promotes a positive emotional response.
5. what is genius?
A level of intellect and understanding of one or more subjects to heights which surpass even those believed to be well-informed/knowledgeable in those areas, often coupled with the ability to innovate in the areas understood.
6. do you like being lost?
not especially, so it's probably a good thing that it doesn't happen very often.
7. would you rather love someone genuinely without it being returned or simply be wanted by someone?
This is a difficult question because I have a braincrazy that spends most of its time convincing me that if anyone even mildly dislikes me I WILL DIE, and then spends a lot more time convincing me I MUST LEAVE EVERYONE BEFORE THEY CAN LEAVE ME (AND MAKE ME DIE). However, there are facts to be considered: "being wanted" by someone I don't like or am not interested in creeps me the fuck out and is like having a wasp in the room; and I am incapable of loving people who don't love me. It just DIES the minute I get a firm "no".
8. are you more likely to go to a cruel person or a boring one?
Cruel, every time, which has been my downfall on several occasions.
9. have you ever fallen in love with someone you don’t know the name of? is that possible?
Only in the sense that I sometimes fall in love with strangers for a second on the train, but I usually end up giving them a name in my head anyway.
10. would you rather travel the entire world as it is, or travel a specific place throughout time?
The whole world as it is. I really can't think of a specific point in time I'd like to be around for.
11. is there a difference between acting and lying?
Acting is a kind of formalised, mutually consensual lie in which the lie is often known in advance; we understand that the actor is telling us a lie and doing so in the service of a story. Lying is much broader.
12. if you were a hero, what would be your fatal flaw be?
Probably women.
13. would you rather be loved by one person or adored by the entire world?
Again, bruv, I am borderline. While 7. resulted in a "neither" vote I'm afraid this results in a "both" vote. Is one person loving me enough? No. Is the whole world loving me enough? Probably not. You have to think about whether it actually makes it into my head.
Alright on Wednesday someone cuntpunch me and make me start work on edits for The Other Daughter so I can get it to a proofreader by Christmas?
1. if you were a fairy, where would you live?
In someone's imagination, because they're not real.
2. who was your first love? does it matter?
My first love was a chap known round these parts as GWWL. I would say he mattered, the way that everyone matters, and I would say that your first love matters because it does tend to shape a little your expectations and fears for future loves, whether you're actively seeking the same thing or seeking to avoid the fuck out of the same thing.
3. do you see ghosts?
I hallucinate but I don't "see ghosts".
4. what is beauty?
An aesthetic experience which promotes a positive emotional response.
5. what is genius?
A level of intellect and understanding of one or more subjects to heights which surpass even those believed to be well-informed/knowledgeable in those areas, often coupled with the ability to innovate in the areas understood.
6. do you like being lost?
not especially, so it's probably a good thing that it doesn't happen very often.
7. would you rather love someone genuinely without it being returned or simply be wanted by someone?
This is a difficult question because I have a braincrazy that spends most of its time convincing me that if anyone even mildly dislikes me I WILL DIE, and then spends a lot more time convincing me I MUST LEAVE EVERYONE BEFORE THEY CAN LEAVE ME (AND MAKE ME DIE). However, there are facts to be considered: "being wanted" by someone I don't like or am not interested in creeps me the fuck out and is like having a wasp in the room; and I am incapable of loving people who don't love me. It just DIES the minute I get a firm "no".
8. are you more likely to go to a cruel person or a boring one?
Cruel, every time, which has been my downfall on several occasions.
9. have you ever fallen in love with someone you don’t know the name of? is that possible?
Only in the sense that I sometimes fall in love with strangers for a second on the train, but I usually end up giving them a name in my head anyway.
10. would you rather travel the entire world as it is, or travel a specific place throughout time?
The whole world as it is. I really can't think of a specific point in time I'd like to be around for.
11. is there a difference between acting and lying?
Acting is a kind of formalised, mutually consensual lie in which the lie is often known in advance; we understand that the actor is telling us a lie and doing so in the service of a story. Lying is much broader.
12. if you were a hero, what would be your fatal flaw be?
Probably women.
13. would you rather be loved by one person or adored by the entire world?
Again, bruv, I am borderline. While 7. resulted in a "neither" vote I'm afraid this results in a "both" vote. Is one person loving me enough? No. Is the whole world loving me enough? Probably not. You have to think about whether it actually makes it into my head.