ps you cannot and will not make me stop eating ice-cream in bed

[apiphile]

Lovely day today spent playing football in Finsbury Park with Suzy (by "football" I mean we kicked the ball back and forth a bit and talked about Diana Wynne Jones, this is my usual form of sport, I once had a four hour "tennis match" in the rain that consisted of apathetically whacking a tennis ball into the weeds and discussing pop music) and then at the pub, and then at home with tea. Very pleasant. Have achieved little but felt horrible brain tensions unwinding & was inordinately pleased to see S back home in London, full of awesome and enviable hair.

on being told for the ten thousandth time how to feel about myself

no, when i say
i hate my body
i mean just that
i hate my body
and when your body looks
like my body, i love it
because it is your
body; and if my body
looked like your body
i would hate it
because it would still
be my body
i hate it because it is

mine

not because of how
it looks.