I'm Back
It's been months since I last updated my journal. I've been losing myself these days. Lot's of things I once deem to be unimaginable seem to be chips of reality.
I haven't change though except that I prefer my friends to call me Renzy.
Yeah. I still hate "them".
By the way, I'm growing fond of the humanities; I might shift to literature. Emphasis on "might". I still have to judge my course.
The Aquinian is out too. And I must say, I'm sort of in a tension. I somehow find the odd coloring disturbing although I'm very proud since it represents our triumph over the dragon.
Well...what else? I've attended the 25th international book fair and what a great experience that was! I had access to books that bookstores are just planning to release. Oh..did I mention you can buy them? hehehehehehehe
Well time for drama. Let me talk about my life these past few days.
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I read from Einstein's Dreams that to dwell in the past is to be lonely. And in contradiction, my friend Nicole, said in her editorial that God gave us the ability to look back on the past; recall the things that we want to relive again. Oh, Ma'm Leny's words on not being able to advance and stagnating on a particular level of life also comes into my mind. The thing is, I've manipulated myself to adjust. I didn't mean that I've welcomed Change with open arms [ooops...please forgive the cliche!], it's just that I tried to "mix" the past with my present life. What I did is I defined my longing logically...[naks...I learned a lot from logic]...in actuality, it is not that I miss High School, it is just that I miss my friends in HS. And when I say I want to go back and study again in HS, it means that I want to study with my friends. Because with friends, we feel a sense of comfort. Well, aren't we glad that a friend is nearby whenever we are in a certain predicament? Or after a very tedious schedule, aren't we a bit relieve and a little bit relaxed to find someone we can talk to; someone to relate the recent events in our life?
As for the present, I've learned to go with the flow, of course we can't avoid the bumps--the rocks that causes rapid riders to flop. I've become, officially, a loner. A weirdo. That's my present reputation. And in my solitude, I've consulted the bibliophile in me on what to do when I feel left out.
----A person once said to me, that I'm the one excluding myself from people. Well, I retorted that I can't help it. If No, just no. If Yes, then yes. I'm trying to make my life as simple as I can possibly do. And don't give me that crap that life is complicated and all we can do is try to live it. Isn't that the same as making life simple? I mean, to complicate life, you must fight those that bring you down, manipulate things to bring you up, and always make things in accordance to your beliefs so that they can provide you with happiness. However, isn't that making life simple? Because, when we mean a simple life, we usually want the good for us. But the good is a very complicated abstract notion. And a very stipulative term. One might say that he's killing another man for his sake. Then again, it's a matter of ethics.
I'm also proud to say that I've gotten over that revenge type, nevertheless, I've always wish bad luck to breath on Rita. Yes. Rita only. You see, if you hate some people, you could: forget them or try to destroy them. For Rita, I chose destruction. For Manong, I chose "Nothingness of Obscurity". Heheheehe. Sometimes, we get tired ruining their lives, so I chose silence and solitude at once. I prefer to live my life without any disturbances.
By the way, I am on a campaign to crucify all VAIN people of the world. Do you want to join me?
I haven't change though except that I prefer my friends to call me Renzy.
Yeah. I still hate "them".
By the way, I'm growing fond of the humanities; I might shift to literature. Emphasis on "might". I still have to judge my course.
The Aquinian is out too. And I must say, I'm sort of in a tension. I somehow find the odd coloring disturbing although I'm very proud since it represents our triumph over the dragon.
Well...what else? I've attended the 25th international book fair and what a great experience that was! I had access to books that bookstores are just planning to release. Oh..did I mention you can buy them? hehehehehehehe
Well time for drama. Let me talk about my life these past few days.
.......
I read from Einstein's Dreams that to dwell in the past is to be lonely. And in contradiction, my friend Nicole, said in her editorial that God gave us the ability to look back on the past; recall the things that we want to relive again. Oh, Ma'm Leny's words on not being able to advance and stagnating on a particular level of life also comes into my mind. The thing is, I've manipulated myself to adjust. I didn't mean that I've welcomed Change with open arms [ooops...please forgive the cliche!], it's just that I tried to "mix" the past with my present life. What I did is I defined my longing logically...[naks...I learned a lot from logic]...in actuality, it is not that I miss High School, it is just that I miss my friends in HS. And when I say I want to go back and study again in HS, it means that I want to study with my friends. Because with friends, we feel a sense of comfort. Well, aren't we glad that a friend is nearby whenever we are in a certain predicament? Or after a very tedious schedule, aren't we a bit relieve and a little bit relaxed to find someone we can talk to; someone to relate the recent events in our life?
As for the present, I've learned to go with the flow, of course we can't avoid the bumps--the rocks that causes rapid riders to flop. I've become, officially, a loner. A weirdo. That's my present reputation. And in my solitude, I've consulted the bibliophile in me on what to do when I feel left out.
----A person once said to me, that I'm the one excluding myself from people. Well, I retorted that I can't help it. If No, just no. If Yes, then yes. I'm trying to make my life as simple as I can possibly do. And don't give me that crap that life is complicated and all we can do is try to live it. Isn't that the same as making life simple? I mean, to complicate life, you must fight those that bring you down, manipulate things to bring you up, and always make things in accordance to your beliefs so that they can provide you with happiness. However, isn't that making life simple? Because, when we mean a simple life, we usually want the good for us. But the good is a very complicated abstract notion. And a very stipulative term. One might say that he's killing another man for his sake. Then again, it's a matter of ethics.
I'm also proud to say that I've gotten over that revenge type, nevertheless, I've always wish bad luck to breath on Rita. Yes. Rita only. You see, if you hate some people, you could: forget them or try to destroy them. For Rita, I chose destruction. For Manong, I chose "Nothingness of Obscurity". Heheheehe. Sometimes, we get tired ruining their lives, so I chose silence and solitude at once. I prefer to live my life without any disturbances.
By the way, I am on a campaign to crucify all VAIN people of the world. Do you want to join me?