with quiet eyes, watch the wind blow down the grass, and the grass rise
Yesturday I went day-after-thanksgiving shopping in Portland. I don't think I ever have gone shopping the day after thanksgiving, so it was good. Sales are always good.
I have been so stressed lately. I took the entire day off today. I had homework planned for the whole day but somehow managed not to touch any of it. This year seems like it should be managable because alot of the work isn't THAT hard, its just constant. and its driving me into this hole where I don't want to be, but its just so hard to kick old habbits. you know, I want to just get everything done on time and and be able to stay up late like I used to, but I know its not good for me. Some people can pull it off but I am never awake enough to learn anythign in class after a late night, so I get stressed, and depressed, and I just can't do it. I don't know how I pulled it off freshman year.
I'm listening to a song that Color and I used to play constantly. It brings back memories? mmmm. I miss those days. Toshis weekly, sitting in my car playing music, hendricks.
What happened?
Last year seems so vague now. It wasn't too long ago but i feel like there is a huge gap in my memory that holds so much of my past.
Its weird how in High School, everything changes so fast. Maybe it's because everyone is stuffed into this box and we see eachother everyday and have nothing better to do than create drama, or maybe because everyone is constantly changing and growing and our relationships with others grow and change with us.
I am so excited to get out of here. To be with people I didn't grow up with. To live with a different family and in a different culture. I am so done with this place.
Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove
I have been so stressed lately. I took the entire day off today. I had homework planned for the whole day but somehow managed not to touch any of it. This year seems like it should be managable because alot of the work isn't THAT hard, its just constant. and its driving me into this hole where I don't want to be, but its just so hard to kick old habbits. you know, I want to just get everything done on time and and be able to stay up late like I used to, but I know its not good for me. Some people can pull it off but I am never awake enough to learn anythign in class after a late night, so I get stressed, and depressed, and I just can't do it. I don't know how I pulled it off freshman year.
I'm listening to a song that Color and I used to play constantly. It brings back memories? mmmm. I miss those days. Toshis weekly, sitting in my car playing music, hendricks.
What happened?
Last year seems so vague now. It wasn't too long ago but i feel like there is a huge gap in my memory that holds so much of my past.
Its weird how in High School, everything changes so fast. Maybe it's because everyone is stuffed into this box and we see eachother everyday and have nothing better to do than create drama, or maybe because everyone is constantly changing and growing and our relationships with others grow and change with us.
I am so excited to get out of here. To be with people I didn't grow up with. To live with a different family and in a different culture. I am so done with this place.
Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove