I can't believe that I did it
Well, last night was really comfortable but had some really hard consequences. Joel and I talked for awhile.
I told him about me wanting to be more independent.
He said that he felt tied down.
I asked him about Kristen.
He said he didn't know.
I said I think it would take pressure off if we were just friends.
He said that he didn't want to make a quick decision.
I think it is for the best.
He has changed lately. His ego has definitely grown, which I think is why he feels tied to me sometimes. I am really glad he told me everything, but I think that him not doing it for such a long time until now was a problem in our relationship.
He told me how he really loved me. He kissed my forehead... twice. When a tear fell after I said I was afraid of not being close to his parents anymore, he wiped it from my face and said not to worry. He held my hand.
I had to though. I did not want to cause him pain or inconvieniance. I did not want to be hurt anymore even if he didn't mean to.
I am sad about Sundays. I don't know what to do with them anymore. I always spent them with Joel. It's going to be a lot different.
He told me we had to promise to still talk. He said he wanted me to be a really good friend of his still. He said that maybe someday we will be together again.
I can't right now though. I really want him to still ask me to hang out still. He said he still wanted strings attached. We agreed that this was a really good relationship. It is just not for right now though.
I told him about me wanting to be more independent.
He said that he felt tied down.
I asked him about Kristen.
He said he didn't know.
I said I think it would take pressure off if we were just friends.
He said that he didn't want to make a quick decision.
I think it is for the best.
He has changed lately. His ego has definitely grown, which I think is why he feels tied to me sometimes. I am really glad he told me everything, but I think that him not doing it for such a long time until now was a problem in our relationship.
He told me how he really loved me. He kissed my forehead... twice. When a tear fell after I said I was afraid of not being close to his parents anymore, he wiped it from my face and said not to worry. He held my hand.
I had to though. I did not want to cause him pain or inconvieniance. I did not want to be hurt anymore even if he didn't mean to.
I am sad about Sundays. I don't know what to do with them anymore. I always spent them with Joel. It's going to be a lot different.
He told me we had to promise to still talk. He said he wanted me to be a really good friend of his still. He said that maybe someday we will be together again.
I can't right now though. I really want him to still ask me to hang out still. He said he still wanted strings attached. We agreed that this was a really good relationship. It is just not for right now though.