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I truely wish I could rewind time...
I would definitely go back to August 1-6, 2005. Denver, Colorado.
During the summer, I had it all together. I could analyze a situation and discern how I should react. But lately it seems like I've completely lost touch with how I feel, with myself. My life is completely discombobulated. But then I realized that I was trusting in myself WAY too much. I definitely do not have all the correct answers. Only God does. The thing I was, and still am, lacking is patience. Patience to wait on the correct answer, because it only comes from Him. And if in fact I do exercise that patience, the outcome of what I've been waiting for will be greater than I would have ever expected. That said, I am asking you (in general) to be patient with me, because I am learning patience myself. I been so confused the past couple of weeks, and (to you) I'm sorry for that. Consequently, learning is a tedious process, but I am ready and willing. I am trusting in my Lord. And in time, He will help me figure out my mistakes. In turn, I will work on fixing them.
I've also been reading in 1 Peter 3.
(verse 3)"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. (4) Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. (5) For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful."
How awesome is that. I mean, I read it again and again because it just really hit me. I long to be that woman of God. It is what I want more than anything else. After reading that, I thought of another verse that I had come across a little while ago. After searching for a couple of minutes, I found it in 1 Timothy 2:9-10.
"I also want women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, not with braided hair or gold or pearl or expensive clothes, but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God."
Ouch. More girls should hear this. Of course fashion sense back then is completely different from what it is presently, so take it as an analogy, heh. So reading all the verses about women of God, I turned to the ever-popular Proverbs 31.
(verse 25)"She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. (26) She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tounge. (30) Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."
I feel humbled. I have so much to live up to. I am trying, though.
I had so much more to type out. But, I think I will keep those thoughts to myself. I have to keep my reputation of being vague, although this post probably weakened it :) So many more thoughts. So little time.
That just 2 minutes of what being in my head feels like. Insight, eh?
Thank you to whoever read the whole thing.
I would definitely go back to August 1-6, 2005. Denver, Colorado.
During the summer, I had it all together. I could analyze a situation and discern how I should react. But lately it seems like I've completely lost touch with how I feel, with myself. My life is completely discombobulated. But then I realized that I was trusting in myself WAY too much. I definitely do not have all the correct answers. Only God does. The thing I was, and still am, lacking is patience. Patience to wait on the correct answer, because it only comes from Him. And if in fact I do exercise that patience, the outcome of what I've been waiting for will be greater than I would have ever expected. That said, I am asking you (in general) to be patient with me, because I am learning patience myself. I been so confused the past couple of weeks, and (to you) I'm sorry for that. Consequently, learning is a tedious process, but I am ready and willing. I am trusting in my Lord. And in time, He will help me figure out my mistakes. In turn, I will work on fixing them.
I've also been reading in 1 Peter 3.
(verse 3)"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. (4) Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. (5) For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful."
How awesome is that. I mean, I read it again and again because it just really hit me. I long to be that woman of God. It is what I want more than anything else. After reading that, I thought of another verse that I had come across a little while ago. After searching for a couple of minutes, I found it in 1 Timothy 2:9-10.
"I also want women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, not with braided hair or gold or pearl or expensive clothes, but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God."
Ouch. More girls should hear this. Of course fashion sense back then is completely different from what it is presently, so take it as an analogy, heh. So reading all the verses about women of God, I turned to the ever-popular Proverbs 31.
(verse 25)"She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. (26) She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tounge. (30) Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."
I feel humbled. I have so much to live up to. I am trying, though.
I had so much more to type out. But, I think I will keep those thoughts to myself. I have to keep my reputation of being vague, although this post probably weakened it :) So many more thoughts. So little time.
That just 2 minutes of what being in my head feels like. Insight, eh?
Thank you to whoever read the whole thing.