It's getting to feel a lot like Christmas....
So the last two days have been spent in complete solidarity. Well almost, except for a few ambitious jaunts to the gym. My purpose in isolating myself from all of creation was to accomplish some self reflection and serious reading. My goal this break is to be productive! I would like to keep in mind that I only have a limited number of days to do what it is I was born to do. What exactly is that? I suppose I will spend the rest of my life, one day at a time, answering that question. My greatest concern as of late is wondering if I am living my life at it's height? Will the future regret these days? Sometimes I can get very caught up in my long term goals. I know where I want to end up: "The sole purpose of life is to serve humanity." - Tolstoy. I want to be in Africa, I want to help the sick and the poor. I want to go and help people that the world ignores. The last thing I want to do is end up in Hawaii. I don't want to waste this one chance living for myself. I'm so damn tired of America. I'm so tired of Orlando and I'm incredibly frustrated with our priorities. I'm tired of wealth but sometimes I wish I had it so that when I went to Russel home, I would be as wealthy as a god so that I could give them all that I have. And already I see the problem with that wish: What would happen to the opportunity a young man might have to donate a camping trip's worth of food?
Hmmmm its funny how even the slightest recollection of a person can change your entire mood:) I am much happier.
So what has become of my self reflections? Well I have realized that I am a person of very base character. I am selfish, a gossip, and terrible judge of others. I am human. Fortunately, free will entitles me to a change in disposition! I am henceforth going to be more mindful of my actions. At least, this is what I will be striving towards. I am even going to put it on my To-Do List. :)
Ok Ok so I think I am being silly as it is nearing 1:00 AM.
I am immensely looking forward to the next couple of weeks as it will entail a great deal of fun. I am so happy that I can say the joys in my life are many! I am turning 21 and I am going to spend the day with my wonderful boyfriend. He is a person that I enjoy thoroughly and I cannot think of anything better than to fill my time with his company. I am also "going out" with the girls to have a much-awaited for mudslide! Then I am going home to see my family and my closest friends. Ashley, Amy, Marie and I are going to go the Ringling Museum of Fine Arts. Then my brother, whom I have not seen in a year, is going to spend an entire day with just me! I am very content with being his little sister, as it gives me greater rights to being spoiled :) My aunt, cousin and the baby are coming for Christmas and that will be delightful, I truly savor the time spent with family you know would die for you and you for them. After all of that, its even possible that I might go on a cruise with the Razzanos! I almost doubted my senses when I heard that bit of news! I have always wanted to go on a cruise and I think it would be an amazing experience with Dan.
Well I am already tiring of hearing myself think about myself! I am not sure if keeping a journal on a regular basis is a good thing? Perhaps it is, as they say, therapeutic? I am starting to suspect however, that it is just another way that we human beings have found to project our life stories as historical documents about how the world wraps its way around ourselves, the center. Isn't that the way we always picture our little blurb in history? What a star I can make of myself! The world would be much more greatly aided if I ceased focusing so much on my own narrative and sought to better theirs.
Very obliged that you have taken the time to read my late-night nonsense:)
Hmmmm its funny how even the slightest recollection of a person can change your entire mood:) I am much happier.
So what has become of my self reflections? Well I have realized that I am a person of very base character. I am selfish, a gossip, and terrible judge of others. I am human. Fortunately, free will entitles me to a change in disposition! I am henceforth going to be more mindful of my actions. At least, this is what I will be striving towards. I am even going to put it on my To-Do List. :)
Ok Ok so I think I am being silly as it is nearing 1:00 AM.
I am immensely looking forward to the next couple of weeks as it will entail a great deal of fun. I am so happy that I can say the joys in my life are many! I am turning 21 and I am going to spend the day with my wonderful boyfriend. He is a person that I enjoy thoroughly and I cannot think of anything better than to fill my time with his company. I am also "going out" with the girls to have a much-awaited for mudslide! Then I am going home to see my family and my closest friends. Ashley, Amy, Marie and I are going to go the Ringling Museum of Fine Arts. Then my brother, whom I have not seen in a year, is going to spend an entire day with just me! I am very content with being his little sister, as it gives me greater rights to being spoiled :) My aunt, cousin and the baby are coming for Christmas and that will be delightful, I truly savor the time spent with family you know would die for you and you for them. After all of that, its even possible that I might go on a cruise with the Razzanos! I almost doubted my senses when I heard that bit of news! I have always wanted to go on a cruise and I think it would be an amazing experience with Dan.
Well I am already tiring of hearing myself think about myself! I am not sure if keeping a journal on a regular basis is a good thing? Perhaps it is, as they say, therapeutic? I am starting to suspect however, that it is just another way that we human beings have found to project our life stories as historical documents about how the world wraps its way around ourselves, the center. Isn't that the way we always picture our little blurb in history? What a star I can make of myself! The world would be much more greatly aided if I ceased focusing so much on my own narrative and sought to better theirs.
Very obliged that you have taken the time to read my late-night nonsense:)