An update.
Over the last year of my life I've virtually abandoned all that was interesting to me from 12-16 years of age. I stopped using my computer feverently. I got new friends(again). I got a job, in the July of 2005, and quit it in the May of 2006. I don't ever suggest working at a walgreens. I got another job when March came round, at a Gamestop. I do still love video games, but when do I play them? Never. What do I do for fun? Nothing. My friends are hardly what I call entertaining, as all they do is loaf around and smoke pot. The truth is, I miss what I was. I miss having a multitude of friends to rope around and wild and crazy schemes to get into. I know as only 17 I don't have a strong life to say I've seen it all, because I know I haven't. I know that when college hits I'll make more friends, or at least I hope I will. It's difficult, as I've recollected over my years, that I have not kept a single friend for more than 4 years of my life. I know, that sounds like I'm lying to you the reader, as it must be some mechanic I'm using to get you to pity me. However, it is the truth. I've seen it with Ariel whom I ceased being friends with after I moved. I stopped being friends with Ashley and Spencer and Jill. I stopped being friends with Brian, with Brooke, with Lena. I stopped being friends with everyone from RWAM, from Halo 2, from Splinter Cell. And now it comes again where I stop being friends with who I have currently. Half go to college, the others loaf. How does this affect anyone but me, you ask? You don't ask, but this is me getting you to ask. Pity is not sought, the truth is I want to relax with a good 7 or so folk and be friends for a lifetime. I know that that builds with time but, as time has shown me with my other friends, I do not have such luck. I've stopped what I liked, computers, videogames, and cast my life into a boring nothingness where I don't have fun the way I used to. No parties to be invited to, no parties where people come. Where is there to go from here?