killer whales
things are changing around me.
seasons are passing as if they were years.
things are just strange...
not necissarily bad... just, strange.
ive been having anxiety attacks alot lately.
i keep trying to brush it off but, in the back of my mind...
its my biggest fear in the whole world...
i need to move...badly.
ive noticed that im starting to find people with more substance...or so i hope.
actually in all honesty, i am very sad about andrew trask moving, he has always been one of my greatest friends.
i am so proud of him and i hope that someday i have enough courage to start my life.
in the mean time, im working two jobs to save up money.
i want to be living in san fran by january at the latest.
i always have second thoughts of going to lawrence or kansas city by myself though...
i need to stop dreaming about these things and plan and go.
i think i will feel better away from the stress that is my home. ive learned to deal with it but, if i dont have to stay here then, why should i?
seasons are passing as if they were years.
things are just strange...
not necissarily bad... just, strange.
ive been having anxiety attacks alot lately.
i keep trying to brush it off but, in the back of my mind...
its my biggest fear in the whole world...
i need to move...badly.
ive noticed that im starting to find people with more substance...or so i hope.
actually in all honesty, i am very sad about andrew trask moving, he has always been one of my greatest friends.
i am so proud of him and i hope that someday i have enough courage to start my life.
in the mean time, im working two jobs to save up money.
i want to be living in san fran by january at the latest.
i always have second thoughts of going to lawrence or kansas city by myself though...
i need to stop dreaming about these things and plan and go.
i think i will feel better away from the stress that is my home. ive learned to deal with it but, if i dont have to stay here then, why should i?