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sometimes i am very pleased with my friends.
on another note...
i am not excited for my birthday, birthdays are always bad. i have cried every year on my birthday out of sheer dissapointment. i dont know what i am going to do on my real birthday, i dont even know if i want to do anything anymore. and sanfransisco i have this hunch that none of my friends are going to be able to come. well at least ill have clarissa up there so ill know someone either way instead of knowing no one and spending it with my mom and....ugh lisa, her friend. i dont want to think about it anymore.
on another note...
i am not excited for my birthday, birthdays are always bad. i have cried every year on my birthday out of sheer dissapointment. i dont know what i am going to do on my real birthday, i dont even know if i want to do anything anymore. and sanfransisco i have this hunch that none of my friends are going to be able to come. well at least ill have clarissa up there so ill know someone either way instead of knowing no one and spending it with my mom and....ugh lisa, her friend. i dont want to think about it anymore.