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hey kids. my first day off in months so i thought i'd give ya an update. not that you necessarily care either way.
i realize that the progress of my career has alienated me from most of you. obviously, my lack of attendance to get-togethers, shows, and dodgeball games have undoubtedly caused a rift in many of our friendships. for this i truly feel apologetic and slightly regretful. and although this split may not have been a consious one for most of you, it is something that irks me each and everyday.
all of you know me, some better than others, but as you know, friendship is one of the most important things to me, clocking in even higher than family at most times. and even though i definitely have not proved it in recent months, your friendship means more to me than you will ever know.
however difficult it is to accept, these past few months have been extremely telling as to the authenticity and depth of our friendships. i cannot blame those who cannot excuse my lack of active participation in these past months, although you have been lying dormant in my heart at all times. i wanted to give tremendous thanks to those of you who have been completely supportive of my career and consistantly put forth an enormous effort to maintain this friendship, even when i am preoccupied. your persistance has not gone unnoticed, and i will remain more grateful for this than you will ever know. for the others, i understand you letting go of our friendship. it is not by any means easy or pleasant to try to remain friends with someone who is unavailable. there is no bitterness here, just regret. i want to express my appreciation for our time together, it sure has been fun. i hope you are all successful in whichever path you are on.
on a concluding note, my boss just called me so i have to cut this short. but i wanted to thank all of you for being friends with me, even if it is now in the past. growing up and growing apart has to be one of the hardest things i have to endure in this lifetime, but i've realized that it is something that happens, and painfully, i accept it. i hope to see every one of you on the other side of this hermit life i am currently leading, but if you get distracted or lost along the way, good bye, and thank you.
anyway, off to lancaster...so much for a day off. i hope i've expressed something that you will take notice.
love truly and forever, even if unrequited,
the April.
i realize that the progress of my career has alienated me from most of you. obviously, my lack of attendance to get-togethers, shows, and dodgeball games have undoubtedly caused a rift in many of our friendships. for this i truly feel apologetic and slightly regretful. and although this split may not have been a consious one for most of you, it is something that irks me each and everyday.
all of you know me, some better than others, but as you know, friendship is one of the most important things to me, clocking in even higher than family at most times. and even though i definitely have not proved it in recent months, your friendship means more to me than you will ever know.
however difficult it is to accept, these past few months have been extremely telling as to the authenticity and depth of our friendships. i cannot blame those who cannot excuse my lack of active participation in these past months, although you have been lying dormant in my heart at all times. i wanted to give tremendous thanks to those of you who have been completely supportive of my career and consistantly put forth an enormous effort to maintain this friendship, even when i am preoccupied. your persistance has not gone unnoticed, and i will remain more grateful for this than you will ever know. for the others, i understand you letting go of our friendship. it is not by any means easy or pleasant to try to remain friends with someone who is unavailable. there is no bitterness here, just regret. i want to express my appreciation for our time together, it sure has been fun. i hope you are all successful in whichever path you are on.
on a concluding note, my boss just called me so i have to cut this short. but i wanted to thank all of you for being friends with me, even if it is now in the past. growing up and growing apart has to be one of the hardest things i have to endure in this lifetime, but i've realized that it is something that happens, and painfully, i accept it. i hope to see every one of you on the other side of this hermit life i am currently leading, but if you get distracted or lost along the way, good bye, and thank you.
anyway, off to lancaster...so much for a day off. i hope i've expressed something that you will take notice.
love truly and forever, even if unrequited,
the April.