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I don't feel good and this entry is definitely going to reflect that...
So yeah, here goes my rant.
My back is hurting and it's hurting right where my herniated disc is. I swear if this starts getting bad again I don't know what I'm going to do. But yeah, I'm hoping with a few anti-inflammatories this will go away.
My stomach hurts too and I think it's because I'm on the verge of having like a major anxiety onset... I really don't even know why. Today has just been so shitty... My mom woke me up early (no big deal really; I'm just tired) and I just kinda farted around for a while. Then before I went to work I went to the cemetary to visit my dad's grave. I was gonna do it yesterday but I figured it wouldn't be a good idea to go by myself considering I was already lonely as hell. So yeah, after that I went to work... Got home around 8:30, and now here I am, flipping out about things that are completely out of my control, and some things that are and I just don't know how to go about fixing them. I feel helpless right now and I haaaate that. I wish I had the power to change the things that I don't like in my life right now. I know I'm depressed... maybe I need to up my medicine. Who the hell knows. I just feel though, that in every aspect of my life there is something that is really bothering me. Things are also changing quickly, which is hard to deal with, especially since I haven't fully dealt with changes in my past.
I also found out something tonight that I really don't know if I should be upset about or not... I've asked for advice and received somewhat mixed opinions. All I know is that when I think about it, I really start worrying and want to cry.
Today really hasn't been a good day... Sorry if this wasn't enjoyable. I just needed to vent. Leave me comments. They make me happy.
So yeah, here goes my rant.
My back is hurting and it's hurting right where my herniated disc is. I swear if this starts getting bad again I don't know what I'm going to do. But yeah, I'm hoping with a few anti-inflammatories this will go away.
My stomach hurts too and I think it's because I'm on the verge of having like a major anxiety onset... I really don't even know why. Today has just been so shitty... My mom woke me up early (no big deal really; I'm just tired) and I just kinda farted around for a while. Then before I went to work I went to the cemetary to visit my dad's grave. I was gonna do it yesterday but I figured it wouldn't be a good idea to go by myself considering I was already lonely as hell. So yeah, after that I went to work... Got home around 8:30, and now here I am, flipping out about things that are completely out of my control, and some things that are and I just don't know how to go about fixing them. I feel helpless right now and I haaaate that. I wish I had the power to change the things that I don't like in my life right now. I know I'm depressed... maybe I need to up my medicine. Who the hell knows. I just feel though, that in every aspect of my life there is something that is really bothering me. Things are also changing quickly, which is hard to deal with, especially since I haven't fully dealt with changes in my past.
I also found out something tonight that I really don't know if I should be upset about or not... I've asked for advice and received somewhat mixed opinions. All I know is that when I think about it, I really start worrying and want to cry.
Today really hasn't been a good day... Sorry if this wasn't enjoyable. I just needed to vent. Leave me comments. They make me happy.