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[apemahn]

today my weight sits at 229. WOOT!
this is a huge thing and i am happy, at the same time it has been a huge hurdle to get to this and i know that getting below will be a bit of work. I have watched myself yo-yo in the last couple of months.

Some dipshit stole a car, got drunk and ran from the cops down my street a month or so ago. The idiot ran into

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[libbyt]

i can definitely relate to this post on so many levels. i am just now reaching the point where i am confident and comfortable with myself. people can be very mean and prejudiced toward overweight people. my esteem suffered tremendously for a very long time. i used to look in the mirror and get depressed. i didn't even want to go out sometimes. i'm not sure at what point it changed but now when i look in the mirror, i am generally pleased. this was a huge deal for me. it's not just physical but i had a mental shift in how i view myself.

as far as accepting compliments, i make an active effort to accept them gracefully. i see compliments as gifts to be accepted with the same love as they were given. funny to have to make an effort to accept a compliment. in the past i downplayed them or, worse, insulted myself in return. how in the world could i be happy if i couldn't even handle someone saying something kind about me?

i have lots more thoughts on these issues...we should email each other. i'm not sure if i have your email. mine is my username at gmail.

much love to you beautiful sister!

[apemahn]

much love back to you Rachel.
Your note makes me smile. i have felt the same way looking in the mirror. the place where i notice the difference is in pictures. the mirror still pisses me off, though i think i am cuter. also, i can wear regular womans size XL instead of just plus size. that is SUPER exciting.

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