Cccccchanges....

Aug 12, 2007 01:51

Today i am 18 lbs lighter than i was on 6/2. I started at 267 and am down to 249!! (i ate some suiza-sauce goodness at trudys tonight and had some decadent shit from Sweetish Hill Bakeries, so hopefully i am the same weight today as Friday.  I exercised plenty today..)

Originally the diet/life-style change scared the shit out of me. I was happy w/the "prescription" for cardio-as i was already riding my bike and swimming, but then after the 1st month came a new prescription for strength training. Since i do not belong to a gym, my trainer, der fuhrer, made shit up that would be easy to do at home and w/my 5 lb dumb bells. This regimen included fun exercises as crunches and push ups. Every fat girls dream. To lift herself off the ground. Aye yai yai.
Have i been doing all this shit? Yes. Even if i am not doing 3 days of strength training every week--i do at least 2, and still shoot for 5 days of cardio. Yes, 5. But this includes biking for fun, and swimming for fun. I traded a friend something for his badge to go to his apartment complex work out center. The place is right behind my house, so i can pop over there and do what i need to do on their machines and get the hell out. This has been helpful w/all of the rain we have had here. That has made swimming and biking challenging, but through it all, i have prevailed.

The coolest thing is, i am not starving or even not eating well. I have sort of figured out how the exchanges work for the ADA diet to try to liven and spice things up. It does help being married to a gifted cook. (he went to the open casting call that Hells Kitchen had here last week--he got asked more questions than lots of ppl in his group but did not make it to the next round. His friend that went w/him from work, did make it. it was cool that he went for it, being that he wusses out of so much. i am proud of him!) It turns out that i am basically already eating in the maintenance phase instead of the boring dietie phase. I am eating now, how i would really want to be able to eat for the rest of my life. Eating the right things, in balance w/other things, and knowing what serving size of whatever it is. I will keep being strict more days of the week than others, while still being conscious of what i put into my body. I know that i am an emotional eater, and even this is possible if i keep in mind when and what to eat. (and how much of it.) You need to enjoy eating, you also need to get the proper nutrients, variety and exercise. If you do this shit and keep other things in moderation, i think it all works out. I have a very, very long road ahead of me. The doc predicts i will be down to 200 by the holidays. That would be great. I have made a deal w/a friend that lives near Miami, that if we both lose 50 lbs, I will go to her, and we will take a short, cheap boat ride to the bahamas and snorkel. Yes, that sounds great, and by then i will surely need a new bathing suit. Mine really looks huge on me now. My pants have moved from a 24 to a 20. Can i get a hell yea?

As i stated before, i know the road is long a head. I know there will be plateaus and frustrating times, but i also know that this is something i can and will do. i am doing it. i have already started proving it to myself.
That is a huge thing.

On a different note, to update, the friend i was fighting with in earlier postings is now not talking to me at all. She got mad because she thinks i never come to her house enough and that if we were going to exercise together, i would have to come to her some too. She lives way the fuck out, and we do visit on her turf, and i was totally willing to go to her house to do shit too, but i think she has a bigger problem with me and was just masking it w/this petty bull shit. This has left us not talking. She still has me as her friend on myspace, but has dumped me from messenger and will not talk to me on it. I feel she has the problem, not me and that i am not willing to change the shit about me she does not like, quick enough for her, and quite fucking frankly, as stated in previous posts, i think that i am doing enough work on myself for one time. As i fix the outside things and my self esteem improves with these changes, other, more deep-rooted mental things, may begin to start being easier to deal with. One thing at a time. And maybe this means we part ways for a while. I would like to talk to her about this, but as i think she is the one w/the issue, i will just leave it the way it is. For now. I am crushed, and I feel like I have lost something huge, but maybe it is just because i am not very skilled in breaking up with friends.  I need to concentrate on me right now.

For those who don't like to read things that seem so selfish and self-centered, i apologize. Not only am i an only child, but hell i DO think it's all about me. At least to me it is, and when it comes to me being a healthier more complete ME, then it's all going to be worth the pain.

This guy i work with bought me a women's discuss. We are going to start throwing it at Zilker park. OLD SCHOOL! I have not thrown one in forever, but i know i have not forgotten. i have no problem holding it correctly. Aim--i thought you would dig that info. I told him w/my back that shot put was OUT of the question.

I feel good, i am enjoying being in my skin, my relationship with my husband is good, and even work is good.

And Nancy Pants our new dog, is working out. She and Jazz have had another altercation, BUT after the round of antibiotics for Jazz, and her continually picking her scab and bleeding all over again, things seem to be fine. Jazz attacks, Nancy puts the smack down. End of story. They actually work together to be sneaky. I love them.

Thats my story for now...
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