f*** it...
i had this whole thing that i know realize is BULLSH*T written about how v-day is coming up and how i don't care and i'm ok with it and blah blah blah more bull blah blah blah.. and somewhere between the boredom of chem. class when i wrote it and now... it's all changed. i hate it.. i f***ing hate it. i know this feeling will pass but right now it is so intense i'm about to just rip something in to little pieces
i want to cry and i want to yell and i want to tear and i want to slap someone and i wasn to hold someone all in one great emotion of anger and rage and love all in one. i don't understand it but i feel my mind slipping away even as i write this. dammit.. what the f*** is wrong with me?!?!?!?! i was fine earler today.. almost euphoric and now... g-d!!!! i hate this... i hate it so much and i don't even know what that "it" is.. i just know i hate it. i hate it.
no worries anyone who may even read this... i'll be fine come tom... just let me weep today.
i want to cry and i want to yell and i want to tear and i want to slap someone and i wasn to hold someone all in one great emotion of anger and rage and love all in one. i don't understand it but i feel my mind slipping away even as i write this. dammit.. what the f*** is wrong with me?!?!?!?! i was fine earler today.. almost euphoric and now... g-d!!!! i hate this... i hate it so much and i don't even know what that "it" is.. i just know i hate it. i hate it.
no worries anyone who may even read this... i'll be fine come tom... just let me weep today.