Drama and Gossip
Wowzah. Apparently my venting in my LJ can inspire long and far reaching consequences. To my friend who was affected most by me again shooting from the hip, I apologize again for the shit I caused you, but not for being me and my opinionated self. And you know that I also feel badly if I upset the others.
To the subject of a previous post, I do apologize if I was misinformed about your response to my name. But I do not apologize for venting my frustrations. You have been absent from my life and my daily thoughts for many years, so are unaware as to how I use my LJ as a forum to vent my frustrations. Generally, angry posts are left public for a week, and then are transferred to my own private, personal records. However, you managed to track me down before the blasting was self-censored. Interesting that it seems you came looking for me.
Not that I feel I need to provide an explanation, but I will. I blast everyone and everything on my LJ when the mood strikes me. I have blasted by friends, my boyfriend, politics, profs, my family, my job, asshole drivers on the road. The fact that you got blasted, well, that just means you happened to cross my radar that day. I am not the same person you knew. Sure, I still get an emotion and have to ride it out. I just now have a forum to get said emotion out of my system a whole lot faster. Sure, you helped form the person I am today, and I thank you for the lessons that you taught me.
Because of the blasting, you are unaware that I actually have very little animosity reserved for you. In fact, I have done nothing but wish you well in your life. If you start speaking to your sister again, I am sure she will confirm that for you. I'd say that I went as far as to say that at times I did miss the fun times we had, but I am sure that will be construed as my still not being over you. I assure you that is not the case.
To your friends who feel they have to blast me in your defense I say: a well articulated argument, however, I will have to disagree with your premises, and the facts as you see them. But, nonetheless, you are entitled to your opinion, as am I. See, no matter what, your friends are on your side, mine are on mine, and each opposing camp is going to think the other is evil. I understand that that is how these things work. I just did not realize how much resentment you harbour for me, and I am unsure as to why. I accept responsibility for the part I played, but I will not have it all heaped upon my head.
So, there you go. A somewhat explanation. It's drama and gossip. Whatever. Let's just leave it alone. OMG! It's the internet. Let's take everything on it completely seriously! Before this, the only people to read my LJ were my friends. Names are rarely used, especially in rants, so privacy is maintained to teh best of my ability. I guess it's time to take action...
FRIENDS! There has been an infiltration by interlopers and infidels! As such, I am required to make my journal more secure (state secrets you know). From this day forth, all entries will be visible only to those on my friends list. Johnny, Neumann, at all the rest, I am sorry your work day entertainment will be reduced. Get yourself an account and I'll add you to the list. You don't have to post, but at least you'll be able to read. Leave a comment and I'll add you... or MSN me. Thanks and smooches!